i love u ALLAH

alhamdulillah for everything..guide me all the way to YOU please..YOUR LOVE saves me everytime,and makes me stronger

"And the redirection will always, always blow your mind.
Let it go. Just trust."

SUPER TRUE..talkin based on experience...

i didnt hit anything...phewww

im learning how to drive now...finally got the courage..dah tua2 baru nak belajar haha.. i wana be "functional" independent woman so i relly need to pull this off  no matter what... dont wanna be the damsel in distress and have to take a taxi or need someone to drive me here and there...have to make my parents realise that im an adult..
 ( which i too have to take some time to "digest" that im now 21!) krik krik krik krik...i dont like growing old...sobsss

life goes on..

so i was supposed to go to my driving school with the instructor today... my driving instructor was supposed to call .. but he didnt ..so no class today...

i relly hate it! he taught me just for abt one hour and expect me to be an expert.. im a girl hello! mmg la lambat tangkap! ada ke suruh aku masok parking terus...dah aku ni reverse gear pon xbtol.. kalau aku bawak sume org bole mati! ( i know im dramatic...)

what i like is that i have 2 bros which obviously know how to drive and to move that car!

i like them teaching me compared to my dad or my driving teacher...seriously...they are 19 (with driving license) and 16 (without)... just now i just spent 2 hours learning with my youngest bro. he drives like my dad!

it's like u will loose ur heartbeat in the process if u dont buckle up LIKE....but i feel safe...somehow.. lol. thats how my dad drives..he doesnt believe in slowing down i guess haha..thats how my youngest bro terperecuk below the passenger seat when he was 2...i was holding him but i lost grip lol

so anyway, i think it's easier to pick up what my bros taught me compare to the instructor.. im more relax, and the car is in control.. i like it!

and ya, i scream several times when there were kids running around... or prior to a sight of incoming lorry... girls scream u know..so let me scream ... malu la jugak bila the engine stops at junctions.. i was practicing around our neighbourhood.. and umm when i screamed, yeah, ppl saw............ehemm ehemm adat la aku baru belajar..=P

and my bro was like " why u let go the clutch so fast..why is it too the left.. y r u no relax when u turn at junctions..why so slow...r u gonna hit the bins? go right a bit.. dont break like dat....." like a grandpa, but a good instructor grandpa! thanks la adik ..ko aja kakak

my youngest bro drives like my dad and hes like a pro oredy...my younger bro, 19, he drives carefully...nothing wrong with dat.. just i see that my youngest bro is more like my dad n  the middle bro his way  is more like me mom huhu.. me, i dono lar how i drive soon.i'll try my best not to cause harm to ppl lol

.hopefully i cud finish my license before going back to school...i dont want to hold back my next short sem bcoz of this license thingy..

xsaba aku nak bwk keter seniri!

Allah's picturing it for us here and there...

salam ramadhan ! alhamdulillah i get to meet Ramadhan again this year =) . Holy Month full of barakah and mercy from Allah. weeeeeeeeee! i love this month coz i get to make wishes on the last 10 nites and they insyaAllah will come true...Hopefully i get to stay up on Lailatul Qadr insyaallah.

im sharing what i think is interesting from what ive watched just now.  there are various infomative 30 mins Ramadhan documentary aired during this month usually for our time pass before iftaar so ..i just watched one lol

umm it's related to my favourite Surah also haha..Al-Waqiah.

it's involving ayat 27-29 ..

27. The Companions of the Right Hand,- what will be the Companions of the Right Hand?

28. (They will be) among Lote-trees without thorns,

29. Among Talh trees with flowers (or fruits) piled one above another,-

we see here,there are  2 trees mentioned. As-sidr and Talhah..i learnt just now that they are located at Jabbal Marra Dhafur, in Republic Sudan.


and Talhah is believed to be the cure for Adam's and Hawa's pain when they were thrown to Earth after eating the forbidden fruit, Quldi. ( they got diarrhea after eating the fruit according the documentary) . what confuse me all of a sudden is , Adam and Hawa were separated till they meet again at Jabal Rahmah...maybe i didnt pay much attention to the whole thing ..check balik..

just illustration- i cant find the pix for these trees haha

just wana highlight here , that these 2 trees are probably the trees in the Quran, are believed to be the trees found in Sudan.  In quran also they are mentioned to be close to one another, and from what ive watched just nowe, they do grow not far from one another..

 Sidr is the shady tree that gives shelter for the People of the right ( people of Paradise) and Talhah is the thorny one...

and both can be found here on Earth.. i think it's interesting that Allah gives us the "flash' of Paradise here and there..Just like The Nile is said to be connected to the rivers of Paradise..







 






lets better our knowledge in this beautiful religion of Allah to attain His Jannah..the more we learn abt HIS deen, the more reward we're collecting.one step we try to get closer to ALLAH , a thousand steps Allah is closer to us.. we see Allah's worldly creation. and they fascinate us greatly. imagine HIS Jannah creations!! unimaginable..

my strength "pill" - Bless us ya Rabb, with Righteous spouses. amiin

If you are single then make du'aa that you find someone who
makes you fall in love with ALLAH every single day!

loving  him back then was wonderful , as he taught me to get closer to ALLAH. i feel closer to HIM. now I  let go the feeling , but retains what he has taught, to gain Allah's pleasure..

my inspiration !-  sis IRMA HASMIE. She once was in love with someone but he married someone else n broke her heart. and she got closer to  her CREATOR. look what Allah has blessed her with! her IMAM is wayyyyyy better .. she's married last friday. Alhamdulillah congrats!

yeahhhhhhhh bebeh!

now i know..nothing compares to "THAT FEELING"

i think now i know how happy a woman who  is just informed there's a life inside her womb. tiny "little her" inside.at least a part of that feeling...i know now..( no la..im not pregnant)

i just had that feeling this evening

i did my ultrasound today...

i had to do it bcoz i had a REALLY REALLY REALLY literally relly bad period pain yesterday. i never had such period pain before. i mean i always have period pain but  never had one that i gotta go to the clinic for. and when i went there, i had to be in the treatment room, took the strongest pain killers ( tablet- didnt work) and an injection..THAT BAD

it was my first time..i felt like giving birth to a baby! ( over la ) but it's true..the pain didnt stop for like i dono..from 8.30 till 3.30 pm sth......yeah!

i felt like punching the wall to make it stop somehow. ( im so ganas when im in pain lol)

it involved  the left part of my abdomen.

i cried like someone died in front of the nurse and the doc.i was loud ...when i cry i dont care anymore. i actually dont care abt the world..let it be if a handsome guy, o a handsome doc saw my ungly face crying lol..i so dont care lol.i just don’t..*nasib lar xde doctor hensem masa tuuu*
 .it was painful ok..i cry when i cry. so bare with me haha (shame shame)


my pain went away gradually after 2 hours taking the painkiller... why so lambat i dono..then i got reference letter to do pelvic ultrasound. i went today morning at 12.. my turn was at 5pm..masak aku ! went shopping at Sogo before that..gotta drink lot of water before i cud proceed with the ultrasound... ppl wondered why i was given so many glasses of water to drink.i was the only one.many ppl waiting oso...they must have thought.. why is she receiving special treatment...lol  ..when i drank, everybody watched..amekaw! SEGAN AKU >_<

owh, that woman who prepared me before i go to ultrasound room, her face was exactly like Ali's fiancee..her cheeks arent puffy like hers tho.. but this happy feeling surpressed it all .

when i got into the room. then a doc came in... the cold gel applied.. i cud see my uterus n bladder! lol i was so happy ! (jakon la aku..but who cares =P) i cud see my ovary also...

he said im ok. i asked whats with the pain yesterday? he said sth abt muscles.i dono ..watever..happy happy!

"this is ur ovary. it's the best picture of ovary i can take with this tool" he said =) it's cute! that black dot over there right?

i was smiling when i see those...haha..thinking there will be the room for a "little me" later..the doctor told me sth like my left hurting abdomen part, contains the ovary that has a high chance for me to produce babies compared to my right one lol...i cant describe to u guys how it feels to hear the phrase "chance to have babies" parallel to the sight of my ovary! it's  not like he told me im pregnant. that is enough to make me smiling all day..just to hear that i have normal chance to have babies ( coz b4 ultrasound i thought there was sth wrong with my ovary n i cant have babies o sth..yeah dramatic kan??huhu.....biasala pompuan..) . it was a wonderful feeling!! i can be a mom lol like other women out there! hehe

i think this changed me a bit, the hikmah ...i was the kind of girl who was so paranoid and pessimistic abt having many babies...i just want 2 babies. 1 boy and a girl. n thats it. maximum 3 kids n im done...and when i was in my pain yesterday, i felt like..WHAT THE F!! is this what it's like during labour?! im so gona take Epidural! ( again , dramatic me) ..but having done this pelvic ultrasound and knowing that my litte one's "room" is alright... makes me said..i dont care how painful it is im having as many as Allah wants to give me n my hubby hehe...it's ok to have that pain, later when the baby is in ur arms, u'll feel the best feeling in the world! i dont have any children yet, nor married, nor pregnant of course... that undescripable feeling i had this evening changed how i see things now..especially about labour pain..the reward is PRICELESS!

seriously the pain i had yesterday , led me to this grateful feeling. my uterus is ok, im a normal woman, and i can bare children of the man i love..so cute!! i saw my ovary.. i think it's cute. cant get over it yet LOL... and i cant stop smiling since this evening lol... girls,have ur uterus scanned, u'll know how it feels!



i still feel little bit uncomfy till now im writing this post of my left abdomen.. but the doc said ' u have my consent, i say ur ok". im ok =)

whoever you may be, i'll help you go "home" Insyaallah =)

I found it!

i been admiring and SEARRCHING for SKIN79 BB Cream. i felt like screaming when i found it at Watson!! i went shopping on the previous holiday. i browsed Watson n Guardian. ( always do that tho got nothin to buy) . then i went to this corner where they place some Korean products. cant read Korean but i was attaracted to their pink packaging. HOT PINK that is.... i read the label and they u go SKIN79!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 * i cant believe i finally meet u!* sorta reaction...

dramatic bit.... i was super happy. i grabbed a bottle at once! bcoz this brand is pricey for a student i only got the small bottle first. after this gonna buy the big one yeayy!

so far it

• doesnt break me out
• not oily  ( even after few hours) love this!
• smell like oat when u apply it onto the face
• medium coverage ( natural look)
• long lasting
• doesnt make my skin glow tho...

 skin79 is the leading BB cream in Korea. i read reviews before buying it. i really wanted to try it now i got it!

i have been using L'oreal transparent rosy glow before i tried SKIN79. i absolutely love it

 this BB cream

• doesnt break me out
• but go little oily after few hours, but doesnt mess the face...
• full coverage ( LIKE LIKE LIKE)
• IT MAKES MY SKIN GLOW! rosy glow that is tho im not putting any blusher on
• smells like L'oreal lol
• not drying but feels like it ( dont worry, it's not dehydrating) 
• non comedogenic

when i put on L'oreal it feels matte, when i put on SKIN79, the skin feels softer, smoother, moisturized. i like L'oreal look better, but i love how SKIN79 makes my skin feels..

 i love both !

i recommend these BB creams for those who doesnt have much time,n lazy like me but wana look good.BB cream nourish our skin. not like regular foundation. Foundation covers the skin,it does nothing but that.However, BB cream treats the skin.It's ALL in 1. suncreen, moisturizer, whitening,foundation , in one bottle. only 5 mins needed then ur all set!

OHMAGAD!! HE'S COMING BACK to US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont be jealous =P

HIS FB

GIRLS' GENERATION IN MALAYSIA!!!

my craziest 23rd march ever!

i was at KLCC. really determined to see em!

there are here for the Formula 1 Grand Prix concert.

23 & 24th march 2012 at Petronas twin Tower - KLCC

the concert called TWIN TOWER @LIVE 2012

i got there at 3 or 4 pm.

it started at 6.30pm

SNSD performed at 9.15pm ....EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!

they all wore white , with boots.. only 8 members came. Yuri couldnt make it..sad..they'll come back again with Yuri next time. Tiffany told us HAHA YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

they sang 6 songs . they were opening the event.

1. THE BOYS
2. GENIE with Malaysia, put it back on!
   
3. HOOT
4. RUN DEVIL RUN
5. MR. TAXI
6. GEE

 they look mature now. i can say. SADLY i cudnt watch them closely coz i hadnt had ticket. i feel so stupid now . my friend offered me a ticket for fanzone at rm25 but i thought i was alone n it's not necessary
 ( nonsense yeah?)

then came the regret when i relly had to lengthen my neck like MR. girrafe just to see whats going on on the main stage...  cudnt see anything

i went round n round for a spot with a satisfactory view (since i didnt buy a ticket- of corz la..ssooo stupid).  then  i met these 23 yo girls were lookin for the same thing as i did.

1. Umi 
2. Farah

girls, i didnt get to say goodbye nor asked ur FBs, but am  glad  that we met. and we are SONES!!!!!!!! HAHA

all bcoz ppl were pushing n pushing like it was kinda strike o something at the SNSD cars...after they performed, we wanted to say gudbye. we went to where their cars were parked... they arrived at the cars, got in, and all the fans went crazy! all guys...they were approaching the windows n got pushed really harshly by the police. i happened to be at the 2nd or 3rd row, being pushed violently. u know how guys are.....i got separated from them two...sob sob

SADLY i cudnt take any pic of them performing. not worth it. i was far from the stage. i watched from the big screen. i cud hear their voices!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and they sang, wasnt lipsing ok..

from fb not mine -the boys

fb- Genie

OH , there was sth wrong with JESSICA'S SOEHYUN, &  TAEYON 's mic...hmm... they were on n off..not gud ...

i love it when they say their line, "anyeongseyo, SO NYEO SHI DAE mida!"

they greeted malaysia ,one member after another .sooyoung said "terima kasih malaysia" nice! haha

and it was indeed hot there. they said that indeed malaysia is hot! lol they sweat after the performance.(especially SICA) poor her. poor them lol

they all look mature now. my favourite is TIFFANY UNNIE!! so cute...i like all actually. they have new looks after the single THE BOYS.

can u believe it?! almost 80% fans flooded the KLCC compound were MAINLY for SNSD???!!!!! AFTER THEY SANG Gee, the last song, everybody scattered to their cars n LRT stations LOL. SO OBVIOUS!

before that, U CANT EVEN BREATHE IN THE CROWD! I MEAN IT LITERALLY! u need O2 supply..if it wasnt SNSD, i wudnt do this crazy thing i did today. and next time, if they come again, i relly relly relly will try to get a ticket. No more watching from the big screen ! wats the point me being there if i only see them on screen!

and i heard comments when the SNSD performance was over.girls said sth abt Sooyoung unnie =)... shes sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo la pretty in person ..ya i saw Hyoyeon in da van, their skin like porcelein doll!! (must be BB cream heheh)

i headed to KLCC station to go back to hostel. YA ALLAH! can u imagine the situation when a small souna packed with almost 99 persons outa 100????? imagine the ODOUR! we all sweat like pigs! and everybody smelled awful . and were  indoor! way to LRT ticket counters were paked with ppl! sweaty ppl that was. (i wasnt exempted). we were like sardines in the tin!  i TRIED to get an LRT ticket...then wat happen?? LRT CLOSED! bcoz they were TOO many ppl!

then many of them ATTACKED the food court, others for drinks..we were dehydrated lol

all bcoz so nyeo shi dae!

i had a memorable experience today. not so sweet. but being pushed like that n watching only from the big screen, no pix taken ( my phone cheap one pic cant zoom , video recording sux!) , im gona make sure if they come again, i'll have a ticket, and a good camera to go with it ..SNSD saraghae!!!!!!!!!!!

IM A SONE =)