online supplement : aurawhite

hi all. i want to do some kind of review, i think more like a warning to consumers out there who use this supplement called Aurawhite Gluthathione collagen.

i googled for hours and days before buying this and i was convinced that it was all pure non chemical supplement. but i definately have something to say abt it. i guess im wrong.

it's a supplement . powder form. shaker inculded.. haha. blueberry flavour. (now they released choc)

tastes like ribena. drank 2x a day. product of thailand. sold at rm 150 in malaysia.

ive been using it for 2 jars,religiously daily! and all i find is it fades my scarring ( new ones-after 3 weeks) but not much of whitening my skin. i dono if it really works because i have beige skin to begin with.

u have to really drink a lot of water to detoxify your body in order for this product to be effective.

i cant umm... i dont get the chance to experience further effectiveness of this product because it gives me a problem. it messes with my menstrual cycle!!

my menses was always on the dot. and after taking this supplement, i have to beg GOD for my menses! 

im serious!! it's late for almost 2 months!! never happened to me! the worst was 2 weeks late but this is worrying...

i went to the doctor and she asked me to stop consuming this product. it messes with my hormones.

i think it works differently in individuals. our body systems are different. it's almost a month now i wait for my next menses. still not bleeding. see the prob?! it's relly scary!

and other thing i noticed is, when my 1st jar was finished. and i didnt have it for like 1 and half month, my skin colour was back to normal. and i left the shaker for like a week without washing it because i plan to buy a new jar. ( new jar new shaker). i find that the raspberry coloured liquid turned black and u cant really wash it off with running water. i had to  use my finger and sponge to get it off.

it scares me because if it sticks like that to the shaker, imagine what it can do to body system if we dont  detoxify enough while consuming this. it's risky.

im really skeptic about online product . didnt relly pay attention to any of it before..i usually do research on every ingredient and anything related to it, cause effects, testimonils.. i usually didnt fall easily... this one looked organic to me so i went for it!

wrong move   !!!!

but im just trying to preserve what is already there. i thought i was making it better but haha... im wrong.

it claims to have many benefits covering health and beauty, i just experince one ...

and it looks really convincing  when the promotional and advertising purposes include celebrity..lighting and makeup...

 hanez suraya is the icon. i guess it's just placebo right? i mean in a video on FB, this hanez suraya didnt get the NAME of the product right..she to do second take and she looks at the jar to get the name right ..i mean if u really have been consuming this for some time, ud know what u consume and the NAME of the product of course........

i guess i fell for false advertising . and fooled. i didnt finish the 2nd bottle coz i get relly scared. never repurchase again. not effective.

do seek medical attention imidietly  if ur experiencing the stated condition k.

Last minute shopping

i did last minute raya shopping ..

i thought it would be a lot easier..but god..i almost give up!

i thought i was gonna go home empty handed.

i was looking for simple plain Bawal tudung only!!!! all kiosks were closed. everyone's going back to kampong..tutup kedai and it was almost iftar time...

i broke fast on the road today. Minum Milo tin jer with my bro he had soya Drinho ahahah

i got 3 plain bawal exactly the colours i want . Alhamdulillah. esok balik kampong.

Eid Mubarak to all Muslims =)

Ramadhan - day 3 1432 Hijrah

this one caught my eye while browsing Fb..

it's true... Adam and Hawa were sinned and descended to Dunya (Earth) as punishment for disobeying Allah's command not to eat the Khuldi fruit *if im not mistaken*

it is our 2nd "world" after the WOMB and happens to be the longest one we are in.

"worlds" every insaan has to go through :


1- the womb
2- dunya
3- barzakh
4- akhirah

Adam's original "HOME" was the paradise ( our eternal home eventually for the doers of good) , but it seems like we often make dunya our priority and neglect our preparations that could  be done for Akhirah, the eternal home of ours. this is a reminder to myself also.

do everything that makes us closer to Allah everyday, even if it's a small thing. Allah loves those who are  Istiqamah in Ibadah.

im really attaracted to Maher Zain's song - DUNYA ..it's beautiful and constantly remind me of my purpose here as a slave of Allah.

"This Worldly Life (Dunya)"

How beautiful, is this worldly life
But not a soul shall remain
We all come into this world
Only to leave it one day
I can see that everything around me
Rises then fades away
Life is just a passing moment
Nothing is meant to stay, oh

This worldly life has an end
And it's then real life begins
A world where we will live forever
This beautiful worldly life has an end
It's a just bridge that must be crossed
To a life that will go on forever

So many years, quickly slipping by
Like the Sleepers of the Cave
Wake up and make a choice
Before we end up in our graves
O God! You didn't put me here in vain
I know I'll be held accountable for what I do
This life is just a journey
And it's taking me back to You

This worldly life has an end
And it's then real life begins
A world where we will live forever
This beautiful worldly life has an end
It's a just bridge that must be crossed
To a life that will go on forever

So many get caught in this beautiful web
Its gardens become an infatuation
But surely they'll understand at the final stop
That its gardens are meant for cultivation, oh

This worldly life has an end
And it's then real life begins
A world where we will live forever
This beautiful worldly life has an end
It's a just bridge that must be crossed
To a life that will go on forever

so remember everyone, Dunya is just a bridge to Akhirah, wise people wont build a big house on a bridge right? our destination is Akhirah , and the goal is Paradise.

Balance up our deeds for Dunya and Akhirah, we all could  meet as neighbours in Jannatul Firdaus . in shaa Allah .Amiin  =)

parents

mine's pessimistic and skeptic.. susah nak introduce benda baru to them.. even small matter like buying clothings online pon, they are skeptical about it..

it's a lot easier if ur like me right lazy to go out and spend hours on foot looking for the right baju raya. im being innovative and not hurting anyone, but they still narrowing their minds to the narrowest alley ..huhu.. apa dah ni

im dissapointed . they cant even be supportive to me for smallest matter like changing the way of buying clothings or stuff .. 

like when i ask for my mom's address coz if i give our home address none is home or im sleeping ke apa, she refused to cooperate and acted like i ask her to give up our house or sth...

 it's so frustrating u know, when u and ur parents differ in a GREAT way! why not open up to new horizon? stop being soo pessimistic and see how that goes.. i was just buying clothings not multimillion dollar house! ok

nothing can go right if i do what im abt to do according to them...

just because i do it differently than usual, doesnt mean it wont work like always right.. ?

how i deal with it:

most of the time, i'll explain a bit, they bash with negative, skeptic statement.i just shut up, exhale, walk away.. if i get sensitive, i'll cry in my room. haaaaaa tudiaaa...

sad lar..... aren't parents supposed to be supportive?

i don't wanna be a parent like that in the future. i'll try to be a good listener to my child if i were a mom..if it's good, i support..why not? there's no need to be skeptic to anythin new right?

i took psychology in my first semester and i learnt that degree of ATTACHMENT is according to mommy's response towards  her child's biological needs. the more responsive the mother to her child, the closer the attachment.

and mine to my mom, when i was little, was very "little"meaning if shes there it's ok if shes not there pon, it's ok.like no impact to the child.

i do love my mom. she puts my needs before her needs now i see it as i grow mature everyday,

but back then, the attachment of me to my mom was very subtle. i even thought i was adopted *it's true!! and i told her how i felt , i even asked her haha*. worse i thought my granny was my mom hahaha!

my mom was sick when i was born.. so she coudnt take care of me when i was a baby. i lived with my grandparents till i was 7.

then when they take me back  living with them when i was 8. i got separation anxiety but none knows..it was a shock to live fulltime with them..when my granny was alive, they visited me every week .. in fact the back to back separation anxiety caused by the weekly visit by my parents effect my emotional condition as a child right. when my parents left as they were going back home, and me left with my grandparents at kampong, i cried. when i had to leave my grandparents weekly sometimes and lived with parents also, i cried. see? unstable emotions.. i wasnt a happy baby.

according to what ive learnt in psycho class, a happy baby will developed to a smart, confident and independent etc person with high self esteem..and i think thats what im lacking due to all this, = high self esteem. im improving it myself im trying to be + all the time, and try to be different from the "root" i belong to.. a bit..it's not all bad.. i just cant take when anyone being constantly  pessimistic...

ahahah my emo story

i do love my parents. god's gift for me. when i was in my darkest hour, they were the ones who were with me when everyone turned their back *i'll have an entry on this* ,but something abt them i disagree thats all.im just venting out frustration on one thing.
 i dont want to do what they do to me to my future children..

i read somewhere, when ur child tells u everything is a sign of successful parenting.

most of the time, i write in blog or in my diary hahaha . that's a lot easier.. besides, talking is tiring. writing and typing is a lot easier. it's ok, i dont blame them.. not all parents have perfect parenthood. we are all FLAWED.

speaking of parenthood,i do admire DR Halina Yunos mommyhood journey. her way of raising her children, the way she talks to her child, Sophea Isabella..Bella, she's an example of a happy baby. do read her blog .it's awesome!!! her blog is always sth i come back to tho im not yet a mom. so informative and enjoyable at the same time =)  nice! check this out Barelysupermommy . 

i wana be a mom like her =)

and do love our parents bcoz we're nobody without them.

it may work in fairy tales...

love at first sight. 

do u believe in that?

if u ask me.

I DON'T.

that's rubbish. i think personally. it's 100% based on looks!

you could only see the external side of him or her, not inside.. it's only one dimensional and totally unfair!

because lets face it, it only happens to "beautiful creatures" / handsome men and beautiful women..

why i say this?

based on my years of observation and tests ive conducted, *ececey haha* it's proven to be TRUE!

lets face the reality yah?

for men,
ur walking in a mall, or park, then suddenly a beautiful woman passes by across the hall ,she  caught your eyes...tall, with big lustrous eyes, curly natural lashes, curvy, skinny, fair, dark wavy long hair..

or

 women,
ur jogging at the park , tall handsome , great cheekboned, toned, tall well built body just crossed your way..

only them will caught our attention right? only these type of people. it's because  they are good looking. good looking people caught our attention. it wont happen to just anyone! believe me.

would there be love at first sight for chubby, dark skinned, short build, ordinary looking people???

NOPE. i dont think so. sorry to say.

i know this sounds really harsh and some might bash it with " beauty is subjective you know" ya ya... thats cliche...

we're talking about LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT here.. and seriously think that it doesnt really applicable to all ... just to those who are genetically blessed with good looks ( natural , non heavy  makeup state) .. it doesnt really exist.

true love does exist. love at 1st sight? naah, nope!


it's movie propaganda. u know when u watch Bollywood movie maybe, they say this a lot!

 once u see one in a movie,  u try to recall what i say;
 " it only happens to beautiful people" - look at the guy the heroine is having her love at first sight with. is she short, plump  or tall dark and handsome? or the girl the guy is having LAFS with- is she fat, short, and dark, or shes tall, curvy and head- to -toe a perfection????

hmm ... ??

so there u go..

i just want to point this out, coz the world we're living today, it seems so competative to me, in search of THE ONE. and looks always prevail. that's shallow right?

im not talking baseless...

it's all based on experience.

beautiful girls and handsome guys, their lives of course have ups and down like everyone else, they are not perfect. maybe they are perfect based on looks, but maybe other aspects, they lack of this and that like we all do..what im saying is, it is a lot easier, and they get a lot luckier to find THE ONE to spend the rest of their lives with compared to those who are average looking..

based on my experience in university, all my friends whom are - attaractive looking friends, most of them have bfs, engaged, some of them are married...see? it's not really hard for them to look for THE ONE since they're pretty.. Alhamdulillah they've found sincere soul mates to spend their lives with.

but being pretty or handsome has its price... ya know..

how does he or she know that their partners truly love them for who they are or just because they are beautiful "tropy" to be shown off to da world ? hmm

it has its pros and cons being BEAUTIFUL CREATURES i guess huh? mostly what ive seen, are their lucky sides.

all in all, i just want to emphasize that love at first sight only works in fairy tales, movies and to pretty people. In the real world, it doesnt really work that way baby... wake up wake up..

but what i do believe in is, good heart reflects outside. Just be a good person, have a clean, kind heart, smile always,stay positive and happy. it's personality that captures the heart at the end of the day. Beauty is desirable. but it wont last. once u grow older, it fades ..

i think it's too shallow to put values to future spouses based solely on looks. to live with them, we have to live with whom they are not how they dress or look like right?

everyone likes seeing beautiful people, who doesnt?, i do. but when it comes to putting good values to only pretty people and ignore the rest solely based on looks, thats sux.

so people, wake up. love at first sight only happens on movies, among beautiful creatures, and fairy tales.. it exists in those dimensions only, not the reality. but don't grief haha.. as good personality and  kind hearts that matter most and they are THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS imaginable.

WE ARE ONE.WE ARE MALAYSIANS =)

im sure all are aware of our 13th General Election on May 5th .. and issues exploded on the internet.. the videos , corruptions proofs, the blackouts, the inks....the foreign illegal voters...

well, i am one of dissatisfied malaysian. i'm ashamed of what happened in the country on the election day. ive seen for myself what actually define democracy in this country. im f-ing dissapointed and humiliated.

foreign news reported surprising fact that malaysia is champion bribery country compared to indonesia, china, hong kong , india ...

australian news exposed the illegal voters and the easily washed -off ink.. im so ashamed . does Malaysian newspapers report all these?? ...NOPE..nothing about WHAT REALLY HAPPENED..only the THINGS 'THEY'  WANT US  TO KNOW ABOUT... not necessarily the truth...

what's reported in our papers.... sad.. alleging one that wins the hearts of Malaysians to be instilling rage and grudge within malaysians just because he didnt get to rule..totally biased report.

as im studying in a uni that composed of international students, i dono where to put my face lar!!!

im taking political science this semester, so i think it really gets me engaged with the issue. nationalism sentiment i have here ..it's really strong now. i feel like democracy in Malaysia is dead, and being stepped on.. it's horrible !!

and by the time i attend my poli sc class, i heard the international student from Uzbekistan (if im not mistaken * he's so handsome, he's my crush hahaha*) he asked one question to fellow classmate  " hows ur election? the result was unexpected right? the prime minister..?' im impressed he pays attention to wats going on in Malaysia *ahh... im melting lol* and the malaysian replied with , i can say, an embarassing face, "not so good" .. haha malu..

i cant believe they reality ive seen on the net. Ya Allah, people receive bribery for voting a particular party. people can really be blinded ,and bought by money huh? wheres your dignity?

who reports what MALAYSIANS ARE TRULY FIGHTING AGAINST?? Foreign newspapers... sad...#singapore #thestraitstimes

one that is not injured won, but the loser is named WINNER..

this GE13 really opened my eyes as a Malaysian  youth.i see everything i need to see. it really boost my patriotism.. i admit, im an irresponsible citizen, im 22. i yet havent register to vote. next term, i'll vote. i promise =)

i flood my Facebook page with eye-opener posts people share regarding the recent General Election. i had no interest to finish my assignment haha..i flood my wall, and people's news feeds of course, and im not sorry LOL (^_^)V peace!

i feel there's a need to share  things, and make every Malaysian knows what is actually happening on 5/5/13 ..

the media, tv and newspapers report biased content and being racist. Ya Allah, please protect and bless our country from further corruption. Malaysia cant be more humiliated than this.

we have an assembly in KELANA JAYA STADIUM on may 8th as a protest of
GE13 result that is believed to be fraudal.. i support it too.

more than 100 K Malaysians came.. and THEY WERE NOT PAID TO COME ok

that's just one state.. in Selangor..imagine if   EVERYBODY came ...

As a Malaysian, i pray for a better leader .. we dont hate anyone, we just hate dirty tricks and filthy politics played just to win the ruling post. the party may have won the "votes", but the one who deserves it, won the heart of MALAYSIANS..whos the real winner now?

so many people are  against the death of Malaysian democracy ...proud of fellow Malaysians! *tears*

the racist headlines on newspapers are so irrelevant . do u see racism in them????

these are truly MALAYSIANS ALRIGHT! the malays, chinese, indians ! not Banglas and other illegal phantom voters! we're MALAYSIANS and we're the ones who are responsible for our country's fate, not foreign people..

Malaysian General Election 13 on 5/5/13 was really different one i should say. besides all the eye opener stuff that happened and saw by fellow Malaysians, it has instill  strong patriotism in ME. i didnt even care back then about Malaysian politics. not at all lol

but this time it's different! and i'll be proud to tell my coming generation *insyaAllah* what the election has brought Malaysians into . SOLIDARITY.

i almost teared reading a post on yesterday's assembly. Malays, Chinese, Indians become ONE.it's like 1957 again!!!!  waaaa!!

the picture tells it all.

we're Malaysians . we love this country. we want clean politics and as a democratic country, we citizens have the right to determine who our leader would be, not some foreign people who obtain IC within a day, and vote  to decide the future of our country with us.we're still here ok! .. their votes are highly valued, they're even paid to cast votes, while pure Malaysian votes could be invalid or sidelined..

Here you go.. Headline in MALAYSIAN NEWSPAPER..only 2000 came to the assembly..hmm..if u wanna lie, lie convincingly la....what do u think WE MALAYSIAN ARE STUPID ?!! we know by lookin at the crowd only please la please! ayyo..

on TV3.local tv station report...seriously?? messed up when counting the votes.. messed up counting the crowd also huh???

despite the rain and traffic jam... please report the reality ok!

as for myself, after the biased headlines bashing the Chinese on local prominent newspapers, i feel the solidarity with fellow malaysians are stronger than before. maybe im a woman, im emotional a bit , i dono la..

when i came out of kiosk, and i saw chinese youths selling prepaid deals or sth to the students, i feel pity, maybe.... to them ... i tell to myself. aku monolog lar sorang2 huhu...
"pity you, you're malaysian too, i dont like the way the media  bash you like that in newspapers"' ... yeah maybe im emotional ....or maybe, it's JUST the  MALAYSIAN in ME!

I  see on u-tube , uploaders who attended the assembly posted videos of those who came, singing our National Anthem "NEGARAKU" .so proud everyone singing after that, they shout UBAH! UBAH! UBAH!

MALAYSIAN ANTHEM - KELANA JAYA 8/5/2013

i feel sebak a bit, thinking  how far we've become from 1957, developments done, multicultural environment of Malaysia... it's not ruined, it became strengthen..it's like we hold each others' hands, together, reviving the dying  democracy of Malaysia. :'(

 i think that's the HIKMAH that Allah wants to show us.. maybe we dont cherish our multicultural environment that much before, ... we take it for granted .and to make ignorant youth of politics like me aware of whats going on in my homeland hehe... Allah revealed things we NEEDED to see in the GE13, so all Malaysians are reminded of what makes Malaysia, MALAYSIA .

see us all united..who's da real racist???

we should make history our lesson. remember 13 May 1969?? nauzubillah....never let anything like that happen again to us... im glad to see all Malaysian united, and fight against injustice.. if someone called it's CHINESE TSUNAMI, we've prove him wrong.. it's MALAYSIAN TSUNAMI!! take note.

personally, i feel the solidarity of Malaysians before this is  subtle ..but after GE13, i see it very CLEARLY and IM PROUD! after all, we ARE MALAYSIANS! =)

DS ANWAR IBRAHIM TALK 8 MAY 2013 " where in the world, you have democracy, and you tolerate foreigners voting!"

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#copypaste .something from FB regarding the KELANA JAYA assembly that moved me ..

Perhimpuan Rakyat 508 ini telah melahirkan “suasana harmoni” yang jarang kita temui pada hari-hari biasa. Ini termasuk:

1. Lebuh raya kononnya telah bertukar menjadi tempat parking sementara! Kebanyakan mereka yang berada dalam kereta adalah berpakaian baju hitam. “traffic jam” yang sepanjang 7km tidak mencetuskan kemarahan sebaliknya menyalakan semangat setiap orang untuk menyambut “perhimpunan 508” dengan cara tersendiri: bersama-sama membunyikan hon kereta bagi menandakan ketidakpusan terhadap penipuan dalam PRU-13! (besok pagi 9 Mei pasti pelbagai media kawalan-BN akan melemparkan isu traffic jam telah menyusahkan rakyat!)

2. Adajuga yang sekaligus mematikan enjin kereta dan terus menyambut perhimpunan bersama pengguna lebuhraya yang lain dengan menyorak slogan “Ubah”, umpamanya perhimpunan-pemandu rakyat 508 yang teristimewa!

3. Ada juga golongan sanggup meletakkan kenderaan pada lokasi yang berjarak sejauh 4-5 km dari Stadium Kelana Jaya dan berjalan kaki ke stadium. Pernahkah anda bayangkan sekiranya kita sanggup berjalan kaki sejauh ini semata-mata untuk tujuan yang mulia ini?

4. Kelihatan “Troop/Batalion Baju Hitam” yang terdiri daripada pelbagai kaum berjalan menuju ke arah sama, Stadium Kelana Jaya, dan yang terpenting ialah dengan matlamat yang sama. Mereka berborak dan bersembang antara satu sama lain walaupun tidak berkenalan antara satu sama lain.

5. Perhimpunan ini dihadiri pelbagai lapisan masyarakat dan kaum: disertai sekeluarga Melayu hinggalah sekumpulan kawan-kawan Cina dan India. Bayangkan, suasana harmoni sedemikian dapat kita lihat pada hari-hari biasa?

6. Ada pula Melayu yang memegang banner DAP sementara orang Cina pula memegang panji-panji PAS. Pemikiran dan taktik Barisan National yang suka berpaut kepada isu-isu perkauman nampaknya sudah jauh ketinggalan zaman dan tidak disenangi rakyat. Yang menarik sekali, ialah seorang nenek Cina yang memegang panji Parti Keadilan turut dipuji oleh pemuda Melayu: “AH Mah (nenek dalam bahasa Cina), u ho-liao ah (awak best lah)”!

7. Berlaku juga insiden yang memberansangkan semangat keharmonian antara kaum (happen to I was there too). Enjin kereta seorang pemandu Cina didapati telah kehabisan minyak akibat traffic jam yang tak berkehabisan. Dalam keadaan binggung, dia meminta pertolongan seorang penunggang motosikal Melayu untuk menumpangnya ke Stesen minyak (untuk membeli petro kereta). Pada ketika Cina tu menawarkan tambang RM20 sebagai tanda terima kasih, penunggang Melayu tu terus menolak pemberian ini dengan berbalas: “Tak Payah Bayarlah Kan Kita orang Malaysia". Saya benar-terharu apabila saya terdengar perbualan mereka! Super kagum!”.

8. Satu lagi insiden kaharmonian: pada ketika enjin kereta seorang wanita Melayu menjadi panas akibat kekurangan air dalam radiator, seorang pemuda Cina telah menghulurkan bantuan mekanik. Dia meminta teman wanitanya mengeluarkan semua air mineral yang mereka ada untuk mengisikan radiator kereta akak Melayu tersebut. Wanita Melayu berbalas: "Terima Kasih ah!" . Terharu kan!

9. Semua orang yang berada di luar stadium memberi tepukan yang gemuruh ketika ketibaan pemimpin-pemimpin Pakatan Rakyat tanpa mengira bangsa. Inilah sikap pimpinan yang tidak berpaut kepada najis perkauman! Semasa En. Lim Kit Siang berjalan merentasi himpunan penyokong, terdengar pula bisikan seorang pemuda Melayu:“ini uncle lim hebat ah! dapat hamdam AbdulGani Kuat kuat! bagus ah!”! Ooi! Syoknya saya nampaknya Uncle Lim juga ada peminat Melayu!

10. Ketika bersurainya Perhimpunan Rakyat 508, semua penyokong PR dan demokrasi meninggalkan Stadium secara berdisiplin dan teratur tanpa menimbulkan pergaduhan. Hanya kedengaran..”Minta lalu!”..”Minta maaf”..”Sorry” yang diucap secara sopan. Nampaknya penyokong Pakatan Rakyat dan pencinta demokrasi sebenarnya adalah mereka yang bersopan santun.
Semua ini adalah pengalaman saya semasa menghadiri Perhimpunan Rakyat 508. Saya amat berharap kita dapat mengekalkan dan menghayati suasana harmoni tanpa mengira bangsa dan kaum dalam kehidupan setiap hari dan bukannya hanya dalam Perhimpunan sedemikan.

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another one from FB.. #copypaste

 Dear PM Najib Razak ,

I would like to say thank you. Why?

It was due to that your "magic" has once again brought Malaysians as one. Tonight I saw Malaysian flooding in , with or without Chinese . You UMNO-BN says it "Chinese Tsunami" ? I call it MALAYSIAN TSUNAMI.

Friends and family tell me that I shouldn't go , "Got Parang ah" "illegal gathering police catch ah" "later PTPTN cancel ah". But i felt that it's my duty as a MALAYSIAN to go.

DESPITE RAIN , SWEAT and we are all CRAMP up into one small spot while walking into the stadium , We are united as one . I see young men helping older men , young Malay lady communicating with stranger like me whom she never meet before , Malay uncles and aunties who look at me smiling and say "INIKALILAH , TRANSFORMASI" and shook my hands. YOU CALL THAT CHINESE TSUNAMI? TAKE A LOOK AGAIN and I'm sure WE Malaysians that is in that stadium could feel the warmth and pride I'm having right now.

You may have taken billions and billions of our people's money but those money would never could buy the unity of people .I would like to thank you again , for I was once again to feel proud and powerful as a MALAYSIAN , your cronyism made us stronger . Oh ya , I too get to go close up to see our pretty powerhouse , Nurul Izzah Anwar . She's so pretty that it feels like spotlights are shining upon her forehead.

One day , perhaps some of our generations will take your places as politicians but we will remind our self that TODAY 08/05/2013 is the day we truly fought hard for democracy in Malaysia , THE DAY WE CALLED OUR SELF THE DIAMONDS OF MALAYSIA! UBAH! UBAH! UBAH!

Thank you so so much for the experience I had today as it would follow me for the rest of my life

P.S. I'm not a Chinese , I'm a Malaysian .

 

Who Says?

It was my group's turn to present in my political science class today. We were doing a country report on South Africa

The second group did Sweden

And our lecturer instructed as to email him our slide before the presentation day.

 Group Sweden didnt.

And it took us by surprise ..when he said " it's very interesting country Sweden. If u  had email me earlier i could have shown my wife. My wife, shes from Sweden , shed be happy to  see it" 

Then all girls go "awwwwwrgghhhhhhh!!!"

WE WERE SURPRISED.

We thought our lecturer is single . but actually-hes doing Phd and married.. haha

The thing is – we had the surprised of our life that moment lol 

I think it never crossed our mind that he's married to a Swedish .

He's Malay, dark brown skinned,  chubby, but he's baby faced and look like a teddy bear. When he smiles he looks like a  6 year old child hahahah

We even thought  he's not yet married.

It changed my perception a bit... who says only handsome man gets a pretty girl and who says  only pretty girls get hot guys?!!

I see one proof here =)

And if i had the chance id love to visit Sweden and married a Swedish there LOL!

A dissapointing reality..

i been observing this, and it is a dissapointing reality.

im talking bout Hijab style..

these days, it has been "synchronized" with the ways non-Hijabi fashion, if i may..

im studying in IIUM with multiracial background students from different parts of da world particularly Muslims from middle east, some from EU, and other parts of Asia. i see and i been wondering everyday abt the way the female wears their hijab.

i wonder mostly abt those who wears their Hijab like this....

they wear Jubah prefectly already, covering their body, not tight or anything, but then when u look at their heads, there is Hijab, with hair protruding on their forehead....

Why...........??

at first, i thought to myself, maybe they are from different mazhab, their ways of wearing it would be different.since we have 4 sects, and i follow Imam Syafie sect, and they maybe follow the other 3. For example  the way of us taking ablution and certain position in obligatory prayer being slightly different..i thought it is like that.

when i think deeper, no dude... the 4 imams may  interpret the way of doing ibadah from Quran differently, but Allah's command about covering aurah is one, and THAT DOESNT CHANGE.

And tell the believing women to reduce [some] of their vision and guard their private parts and not expose their adornment except that which [necessarily] appears thereof and to wrap [a portion of] their headcovers over their chests and not expose their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands' fathers, their sons, their husbands' sons, their brothers, their brothers' sons, their sisters' sons, their women, that which their right hands possess, or those male attendants having no physical desire, or children who are not yet aware of the private aspects of women. And let them not stamp their feet to make known what they conceal of their adornment. And turn to Allah in repentance, all of you, O believers, that you might succeed.  (An-Nur :31)

it is weird looking, what's the purpose? what msg r u trying to proposed. "im a modern muslimah??"
it's confusing. u know it's easy . it's either YOU  COVER ALL or YOU DONT.


 if it is out of fashion, fashion trend would evolve after period of time.. following it means to please fellow human beings, not Allah. Fashion trends keep on changing, but not the sin we made when our aurah is exposed. it's not like it is there for a period of time, the next trend comes out, past sins disappear to make room for new ones. it is always there since committed  and Allah is counting.........

 i know there r a lot of other issues,like wearing hijab with leggings, with tight clothing, clothing that "wrap" the body and hijab's worn above the chest level. but this one is like so annoying and i see it everyday in class or cafetaria.

analogy...and the choice is 50/50 right...you cover, or you dont. make a choice. IT'S SIMPLE!

HALF COVERED, HALF NOT. you might as well take the hijab off and wear it when you're ready.whenever that is.

i watched a drama on tv3 shot in Riyadh, and i saw females there in some of the scenes..and i knew it is not just in IIUM, it is everywhere and frustratingly, it happens in the Arab country hmm....

HIJAB is not just a piece of cloth, it's more than that.Allah loves us so much that HE protects us in various ways HE could... Why are we so blind to see that?

SHOPAHOLIC virus????????????????????????????????????

i think i just got bit &  infected by a Shopping bug!!!

i have to go out everyday and spend money . ON ANYTHING! anything at all! i feel like a transgressor and im being too much, the more gulity i feel, the more shopping i do!!

O Allah what is this?? what have i done!!!!!!!!!!

i couldnt help it. everytime i want to eat, i'll eat out with Fani. it's not like we cant eat at the mahallah cafetaria. it's not like they stop serving wholesome food, WE JUST HAVE TO EAT OUT!!*see, it is contagious, this "bug" bites, and 'infected' me, i infect Fani*

and we spend like ca-razy! on clothes, hijab, makeup,  *thats me..i been craving for DIOR n now im DIOR addict!!!* and  skincare (tho we already have much)   H-E-L-P!!!

i got my sk ii stuff and Dior makeup primer in February, then the shopping spree went on and on and on........... giler!!!!!!!

 i hate myself for this. my money runs out like the pipe water in our kitchen! aku dah pokai la,dah dah la kuar shopping nyerrrr

the fragile heart is to be gentle with...

A woman's heart is fragile. dont go around breaking it as u please. you know when she loves, she desires to be your last.. it doesn't matter if shes not the first.

i paraphrase UAI, if you're not marrying a woman, haram for you to give her expectation of marriage be it words, or actions..

If you have no intention whatsoever of marrying a woman. dont give her the wrong signal to "test your market" ,boost your manly ego, fooling around sweet talking to  girls as if you're MISTER UNIVERSE, so handsome that everyone wants u duhhhh so vain. hahah..that's lame. 

what's cool:

BE A REAL MAN. DON'T APPROACH HER. APPROACH HER WALI. *ketaq is manly lol*

 

remember, Allah sees everything.. He knows what's in our hearts.

when a heart breaks, in pain...HE knows..WHAT GOES AROUND WILL GO BACK AROUND..no exception. may be it won't happen to the doer..maybe the doer's son, or daughter so the doer takes lesson * if he does the reflective thinking lar..kalau x dia memang xde MUHASABAH diri. xguner! lol*

AND

karma has no menu..u get served what you deserve...

so girls, based on my observation in my mature age *baru 22 hahaha* sweet talkers are the most easy to track. they say stuff they dont mean to  girls,same thing being rephrase to suit the girl and situation lol.n ya,they literally dont mean it lol. booya! 

so beware. take care of your heart . For the love of your life, MR. HUBBY