this is so true! no hiding.and it works the same way for everybody right? =P

a woman can hold back her love for decades ... but not her jealousy even if only for a moment...

do u like what u do???

hmm aku tulis ni sbb aku terjumpa manusia2 yg mcm xkena je dgn profession yg mereka pilih n menyakitkan hati aku n org2 di sekeliling mereka hehe. im not a miss-know-it-all who likes to tell ppl what to do , what to say ( im not bossy ok) but it doesnt look right when ur a doctor, or a teacher/ lecturer to talk n treat ppl who come to u with cold shoulder right?

do u really have to be emotional with them? have u heard,read, or encounter  the word "PROFESSIONAL" before?

do u really have to mix up work with personal life n if sth goes wrong in any of these 2 "departments" u simply put the anger to those who actually come to seek ur help n advice?

plzz la be professional ok!

1. DOCTOR 

 one time when i was sick with fever ( bad la, high temp, hingus lagi sob3) i went to this clinic nearby IIU, this first doctor who examined me was a male, Punjabi doctor. He was relly nice , soft spoken , pleasant doctor. around 40 i might say .he checked my temp, "u got demam la sister " .nice~ NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! haha. he gave me a 2 days MC (maseh doc :)  .Unfortunately , my fever didnt go away within 2 days. i needed more rest. i didnt go to class la of coz *big grin* i was sick! so, i take the medication prescribed , drank lots of water till my tummy bloat like a toad lol (exegerrate a bit =P) then by evening on the third day my fever was gradually recovered. i went la to the clinic..i went to extend the MC coz i didnt go to class on the third day due to my sicky condition. u know how cold fever is right. so uncomfy! tissue papers, headache and all the "equipments" coming along with it. i went to the clinic by foot! sob sob sob . da la sick, jalan kaki p klinik...see how strong i am? ahaks.. so this strong gerl went la to the doctor. this time, there was other doctor in charge, a male, in his 40s, malay doc.. so he  wasnt smiling at all, didnt greet o anything ( not expected to bow b4 me o anything, at least smile la) da la aku ni sakit, the more i looked at him , the sicker i got i think... he really had to add my sickness by his school-headmaster-facial- expression la kan?

then, not like other docs, he asked "knape?" his tone was like everybody who comes to him, is a maggot he needs to get rid of quickly, one maggot after another. so i was his maggot la that time...... he looked very annoyed to treat me. he checked my temp, asked how i felt. my temp was normal 37 sth.he showed the thermometer straight to my face!..of course la! . i took the meds, i drank water.but i was still SICK.i felt sick still..i just wanted MC for the day i was absent for on the third day of class!! he thought i was lying or sth.he thought i was that stupid to deceive a doctor? r u a stupid doc ? lol  i was still sick  that time.. i pulled my strength to walk n that was wat i get? he added, what class did u have today . i said, arabic and others i  dont remember... and he said to me, mm ben student, anything related with arabic/ islamic lazy lazy to go to class with a serious face. no he wasnt joking.i wud have smiled if he did...i then  gave him the angry look of corz. i stared into his face, with anger ( dont play play with sick gerl with cold fever k lol)..he didnt have the right to say that! he didnt even know me! i loved my arabic class ! that was the only class that time was considered relaxing to me. he was really annoying! I WAS FREAKING ANNOYED! PLZ LA! UR A DOCTOR ! cudnt u be more supportive and motivating?! thats what u shud do!

he wrote sth on the prescription slip.i took it. i went out. i didnt say anything ( see i was relly relly annoyed!) . he did extend my MC,but my point is, does he have to react the same way to all his patients?! in a very irritating sort of communication? if u dont wana be a doc, then dont! start teaching o sth. stop annoying other ppl with ur discontented face! if u have probs at home, dont bring it to work! i know we r sicky strangers to u, we might as well transfer infections to u ( probably duhh) but, ur THE DOC, thats a fact. and didnt they teach u in med school, bout ethics with ur patients? the way u communicate reflects who u r. it's not profession, it's individual! dont give other docs a bad name by ur bad attitude. it sux.

another foreign doc i went for my disgusting infection of plantar wart ( i got it from the hostel! i had an opening due to nail pricking, wasnt that thoughful to go to the doc) he scolded his patients for being scared! HELLO! being scared for pain is normal doctor,  dont u know ?? ur the doc, u have no idea how to soothe them? what agitate me is, they know the patients r scared, they just dont care. oh i realised sth!

• they face pain, deaths every single day. they become less n less sensitive day to day . tada!! got it!

i used to think that docs are caring, loving,and ahh handsome.. (off topic) .. that was what i think..most of them are.. but based on my experience,umm they r some docs who r like a royal pain in the A-- . its true tho. no need to get offended. but i truly respect them for sacrificing  their time  n energy in helping ppl . ( they have panda eyes, no much of beauty sleep,dont get proper meal time sometimes, dont get free weekends like others etc. haha. does this line sound pessimistic to all future docs out there? )  BTW,i support hug-a-doctor-day!!!!!!!!!!!!! (hehe..cant hug ali..he's far! )

i like what dr. sheikh muszaphar taught dr. halina when she was in her hosemanship. i totally agree with him . He said,

“These people, it’s not their choice to be sick.. but you chose to be a doctor. Treat them nicely…”

waaa.  dedicated, sweet, gentle doctor, there there see??? like that laa  nice.. be nice docs! =)

continue later. got lazy oredy

i like it when u smile..the best thing is knowing that im the reason =)

below is the post that i copy paste from fb.with addition.... i like this ..it's actually for bf n gf..but i dont believe in that.. i believe this is for hubby n his wife hee~ dating after marriage XOXO

it's what we girls want!

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything ( while ur working late )

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

dont believe when she says it's ok.. her it's ok is not ok


- hold her to sleep on  her birthday n tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.


- Kiss her in the pouring rain ( but i can be in the rain, i'll catch fever)

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?" lol


i want a lover, a best friend, an IMAM, a teacher, and a good role model in my husband =)

I LOCKED MYSELF OUT!!

it was kinda a tiring saturday, we still have one day to go , taaruf week ends tomorrow. Sunday...lame right?? ppl sleep tight on sunday morning ..I? I HAVE TO  wake up early and get ready to attend a talk...what la comittee...ppl snore on bed sunday moning u know!

by the way i just wana tell u ppl about my unfortunate day today.. there was a talk (i hate attending talks!) ..i had to sit for longggggggggggg hours n listened..i felt so bored that i left my handsfree in the room, i wudnt be that bored if i brought it along. haish lupe pulok!

it was about clubs, askar wataniah , like the PLKN stuff la..which i so dont care n interested abt.. WE HAD TO STAY! cannot go out. we were treated like kindergarten children how pathetic! hello do u know that we all like 20 somethin??????

and the speaker was so enthutiastic to talk! what laaa.... cudnt he stick to the time given for him to deliver the talk..everybody was like : when lar this man gona stop talking..everybody was so bengang. i was bengang too.

after they wrapped up the talk, we all happy happy happy. i had an AWESOME lunch! *big grin*

osem osem osemm!! what destroyed the awesomeness was when i realised i left my key in da room!!!!! what?!! this was the second time oredy u know.. i dont have Alzheimer but i keep forgetting the key haha.. so small anyway..

first time it happened was on thursday, i had to gather at the assembly spot on 1.45pm ...i had to go to mahallah office to get spare key..so tiring u know.. its far..my feet felt like they dint wana touch the floor anymore!  my limbs r all lax! IIUM is sooooooooooooooooooooo big. i had to go everywhere by foot. no    car yet.. sob3..



today after lunch i thought it was not a big deal i left
my key, i wasnt THAT worried coz like the other day i left it, i just had to go to mahallah office and get the spare...but what i didnt realise was, TODAY IS SATURDAY. office isnt opened on saturdays!!!!!!!

monday n tuesday will be public holiday! so silly of me to leave it...god! ( u know malaysia got so many public holidays, when u left ur key and days after that are public holidays, ur on ur own u know..waaaaaa waaaa!!)

to add up the misery, my singaporean roomates, one went back to singapore for her school graduation, one's with her mom at the hotel,  will be back only tomorrow! and the malaysian roomate is nowhere to be found since we havent met her yet.dono who she is ( a senior we were informed). AND AND AND..... sunday
 is maulidur rasul, monday will automatically be public holiday, and tuesday is thaipusam. surely it's public holiday! office doesnt open on public holidays!! actually i had to stay out till its TUESDAY!!
 (  if the one who spends time with her mom deosnt comeback on sunday) TADA!!!!

im such a klutz!

i dont have their number to call, so stupid of me for not asking their no!

i tried the ummm AMAZING? skill ....to open the door using the plastic card, we use for atm ,prepaid ,and public transportation pass...ahhhh.... not relly skillful since ive never robbed any bank o house before lol...i just saw my friend did it when we were locked out once..i tried for half an hour, hot u know!  sweatin like pig!

after many trials, i didnt make it, my POPULAR card, broke into 2, my bank card ( not in use) not in its good shape anymore...still the door is locked!

i tried to get help from the guard, maybe she holds room keys for blocks in this mahallah. i went there, but saw nobody ( where u go ah? it's working hour u know...kantoi..)

on my way back to my room, ( yea, i was all alone...eat alone, go everywhere alone!.sad sad...forever alone one) i bumped into a friend, she was goin back ( my home is far, otherwise id go home too!!) . i told her i was in trouble, she said call student welfare committee members. ones that usher us here n there. "take care" of us throughout the taaruf week. their no are in the taaruf book.

i flipped the book, i found numbers of female comittee members. i made the call. i had to call 3 sisters. luckily, the third one picked up. she said, in situation like mine, i had to wait for the office to open to  get the spare key , or my roomates come back, or ask the mak cik cleaner who has the key of our room to unlock my the door for me. otherwise, the only option (which she was strongly suggesting to me, ) was, go and stay with my other friends in other mahallah till my roomates r back...hish..thanks..waaaaa...why havent i think of that........ what a revelation.....*roll eyes*

i didnt give up, i wana shower n sleep in my OWN bed! i was determined to get in. i didnt know y i wasnt that worry. i said in my heart, YA ALLAH, help me get in, i know u'll help me get in..

again i tried to slip the plastic card to the edge of the door lock...like in movie ..

sob sob sob! it didnt work!!!!!!! * cry cry*

and i was thinking absurdly, if i can get through through the small opening above the window and get in, that id do....

and i went upstairs n knocked a door. i wanted to borrow a chair so i can climb up ( see how ridiculous i can be?! ) . she was a senior. third year student.. i asked if she knew how to open a locked door using plastic card. she said no. ( of course la, it's rarely done)

i told her i been trying, tired oredy..

she asked, is it possible to open with a card?  i said yeh, ive seen ppl do it before. so i took her chair, she wanted to try opening the door for me. she brought along a card with her..

we were at the front of the door. and she said its hard to climb up like that ( i know i was being absurd but i wanted to get in so badly! lol)

know what happened?

she tried slipping the card to the edge of the door knob, and voila after 3 times swiping, the door was unlocked!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYY!!!!!!! shes a professional robber haha!


she was shocked herself.. we were like whoa!!  it's opened it's opened!! she said " waa i can rob now". not so weird that came out of her mouth lol .it was like an achievement to her LOL..she did it the first time, and the door was unlocked. JUST LIKE THAT!

she tried 3 times swiping the card,she did it!  i tried tens of times, tetttttttttttttt not working...

the secret is, u need a thin strong card, not a thick strong card.. i used the thick one, then i used the thin valnurable one..thats y la it broke into 2 ..hmm.. bijak bijak........( not encouraging nor "educating" u guys on how u rob a bank, but sharing the method to unlock the door in case ur forgetful like me la ye hehe)

i thanked her. shes known to me as THE SIS WHO OPENS THE DOOR lol.. she lives upstairs.

pathetic me.. she tried below 2 mins n succeed!

 i tried for hours ...krikkk kriikk kriikk kriikk. nothing happened....lol..

from that moment on, i always put my keys into the bag  right away after opening the door.. hehe "trauma" suda...

make sure important stuff is checked before u go out ok, dont be like me =P

Reminder for myself,also reminder for anybody who r in THIS kind of circumstances...

i got this from a friend of mine.. good analogy indeed.

We may have planned our life beautifully, but Allah determines it all.Things may not happen as we planned them, but watever  happens, it is for the best.

Also, IT may not seem like it's THE BEST THING, in ALLAH's knowledge, IT IS!

Bcoz ALLAH knows everything we know not.. right?...............

we always think like WE KNOW what we want/ what we need, but the truth is whatever we want, or whoever we want may not be suitable for us to have, thats y we have Allah to decide whats best..getting too engrossed of what we're havin or planning, Allah "wakes us up" by giving us obstacles... one way of saying "hey this isnt good for u, im gonna give u sth/someone better,wake up". the way we "wake up" may be different. it cud be with tears, joy, also fear.. any kind.the obstacles maybe something real good, it cud be not so good..



Fate, destiny isnt what we control, we only can make effort, and lastly tawakkal. After that, it's up to ALLAH to decide.


Here's the story...

Once upon a time, a well-known painter was working on a painting. It's an incredibly beautiful painting to be shown at the Airport during the upcoming festival season. The painter wanted this painting to be a master piece.

He worked on it for weeks on the top of a 24 storey building. He was consumed by and excited with his own painting that he unconsciously took a few step backward while admiring the 2 x 8 m painting. He didn't look back when he walked backward. He kept on walking backward until it was a step away from the edge of the 24 storey building. Just one more step backward and he could have fallen to his death.

A man saw what the painter was doing and was about to shout at him to warn him when he realized that his shout might surprise the painter and thus make him take that fatal one step backward and fall down. So the man took a brush and some paint and began to paint on the beautiful painting until it was damaged.

Upon realizing what happened to his painting, the painter got very angry and moved forward to hit the man. However, some other people who were also present at the vicinity held him and showed him his last position which almost made him fall.

MORAL: Sometimes we have planned our future with such beauty and dreamed of beautiful days we will spend with our loved one, but then ALLAH seems ( WAT WE SEE AS DESTROYING, actually, it isn’t) to destroy our beautiful painting when HE sees what danger lies ahead of us. Sometimes we are angry and annoyed by what ALLAH has done to us,(which is true) but one thing we have to keep in our mind is that our Creator is Most Wise and always keeps our best of interest in mind!

So when ALLAH in His Infinite Wisdom, tests us with a situation that we think is difficult or takes away something that in our mind was good for us, we need to remember that perhaps it may not be so. Perhaps if we had continued in our way, it might have been harmful for us and whatever ALLAH decreed for us is actually better for us, for He is All-Wise and All-Knowing.

reminder for me

Allah understands when nobody does..."talk" to Allah ..

"When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way."( Al- Baqarah : 186)

Lessons learnt.

# 1   When Allah gives a test towards me, and it hurts,it doesnt mean Allah is mad at me, it means HE pays attention to me and miss my voice to plead dua to HIM. It MEANS, HE LOVES ME SO MUCH that HE doesnt want my heart to be taken care of a man, Allah wants my heart to be always closer to him. To make me realise, other human can hurt, but Allah is always there to heal, and listen and reward sth/someone even better, n most important, will never ever hurt.

# 2    Internet communication/relation doesnt end in happy endings. (those who do meet their happily ever after online, u guys are chosen ones. not all are lucky) . to me, the best that cud happen on internet social network is  ( particularly yahoo coz fb is more reliable - i guess??) u become best friends with other person, and nothing more.

# 3    Men can be sweet, very friendly, and caring, but mean nothing more than just a friend online (smart, cunning ones). if u think more, its your fault. bare in mind that u both are 2 different persons who are total strangers, spending time online and both need someone decent to talk to. U two found one another, and get along very well bcoz both of u have the same needs! ( u both are bored and having sth very much in common! thats all, nothing more!) . if ur heart feels sth, its comfort n pleasant, not LOVE! get it? one person falls , another wants just a good chat friend. see where the tears go? see whos with  the broken heart, n who feels nothin??? hmm..no matter how nice u are, or how much u both have things in common, if one have set the relation to be only friendship the other cant do anything about it. clear?

 # 4   Googling is good, facebooking, tweeting,onlining is good, having a social network (controlled one) is also good, but dont forget the real world ppl lol ... bcoz when ur having a melt down with the "virtual ppl" u'll still have ur real friends around u, go out, get some fresh air lol. chill!

# 5       Be thankful of what we have now,bcoz if we count / pay attention to what we dont have we'll never have enough and always feel unlucky. Alhamdulillah, Allah made me "found" this kinda ppl, so that i learnt from them, they've shown to me what type of person i DONT WANT TO BE. to be very careful on trusting ppl, although he may be educated,respected,religious even, everybody has a little devil in them. we all do rite? 

# 6      the truth might hurt, but its the reality, face it! take it as valuable experience/lesson. 10 years from now, i may laugh about it =P 

If Allah is all you've got, then you've got all you need

“Call upon Me; I will respond to you.” [The Quran, 40:60]

 

 

Allah has helped me when i was in my tears. Now, i ask Allah to strengthen my heart with his LOVE. No more tears shed for someone who's not gonna be mine. I feel calmer now.

i 'll tell how Allah has helped me.. When i found out he's engaged, i relly wanted to know, eagerly wanted to know who that woman is. One that gets to spend the rest of her life with him. 

So, at first, none. no clue.

But then, i found new added friends on his wall, 6 of them. He told me her first name back then when i asked. There was one girl, with that name (not sure whats the last name) ,in the new added friends list,So i guess that was my first clue. that was the woman! aha!

I googled that name, i got her university! (^_^)

when i googled the University, guess what? Yes! that is the woman! He told me what she's studying....the department, the course... All matched!

Then, of corz i wanted to see how she looks like right? ya what else, i googled the image. And voila! 2 pics of her .... I saw her since april, but i waited until december to make sure! 

Bcoz, they are a bit "shy" to communicate on walls i guess. Nothing much going on. i cant do the "spying" job that well back then. 

Then, in december was his birthday, yep, she wrote on the wall with "i luv u" signiture. I mean none has wrote THAT word freely on his wall. That was the 1st time i saw someone did.    

And thank god, she changes the profile pic from time to time, FINALLY!  I SAW HOW SHE LOOKS LIKE! ( of corz i had to wait for some time).. Sometimes Allah whispers to me to check it LOL... thats how it happened.

Do u know how amazing i feel when i found out that the anonymous girl i been googling all this while is relly her?! i mean i thought, u know, it could be anyone with that name, there are billions of people in this planet! hello... gazillion! and i found that one person, exactly the person im lookin for just by googling?!

What dissapointed me is, i dono why he lied about she wearing the hijab, she doesnt. 

when she put up her profile pic, or the ones that ive googled online, none of them is with Hijab. =( ..Everybody can see her hair ( for MUSLIMS readers, they'll understand)... He answered "ya" when i asked him about she wearing Hijab. 

Was there that i realised, that maybe he was putting a "mask" when i was falling for him. That "mask" is the mask of my dream guy. That was how i fell for him. He is such a knowledgable person, knows whats halal n haram, but when i saw his fiancee, what he taught n said to me, i guess that was ALL "SCRIPTED"! 

Covering the aurah in Islam is obligatory, and he knows that very very well... when i look at all the truth that has been revealed to me by ALLAH, he's not worth my tears. He' s not the "dream guy" i thought ive found. He has the knowledge,yea he's a brilliant guy.. but he doesnt relly practise it i guess. He'll be her husband soon, he's smart, i think he knows what to say n do.

So, from what ive experienced, moral of the story, (^_^) 

With Allah's help, everything revealed itself one after another.. One way of Allah "wiping"  my tears..like HE's saying to me, "ok dont cry, i'll show u who she is "  =) (sth like that)

I dont need the CIA! LOL i just need Mr. Google and Allah's help of course. IF i google that name now, the 2 pics i saw earlier this year,  are not there anymore. See the miracle??? 

Allah will help u when ur in need, sad, when u think everybody is against u ,betrayed, and u got no one, u feel alone, Allah is always there,  watching u, guiding ur way...taking care of u..all u have to do is ASK. 

Make dua. Allah is listening 24/7 ... 

REMEMBER ;  The heavier the burden placed on you by Allah the more strength HE will give you to carry them... Alhamdulilah 

And i hope, those with broken hearts lol i guess i cud say that,here's a piece of advice ;   "The Only One guaranteed not to break your heart   is the One who made it." 

Allah is our first true ♥....so when u lose ur way, to ALLAH u shud turn, as HE promised, HE'll always be there. You can always cry, and ask for help, for HE is the loving and most merciful.  

 

I LET GO, it's time.

Though i learnt the hardest way, i learnt a lesson. a valuable one.

"Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear…” (Al-Baqarah 2:286)

 Look at this lyrics...

it motivates me :

Look around, it's dead at night
You've been losing every fight
You're hope is, feeling broken
You're feet are rough, they're scraped and bruised
But still have strength to take you through,
Into,
The dark

At the beach, the waves will crash
Tuck and grab and pull you back
The sun may, be covered in gray
The sand will itch, itself may burn
Hurricane will take it's turn
Until,
The dawn


So close your eyes, shut them tight
Let it be, and it will fade away 

Push on though the strength in you
Let it be, and wish it all away 

With open eyes,
Open wide,
It's all good now, watch it fade away,
Day by day

Just close your eyes
And push right through
I know it's tough right now
This was meant for you
When the clouds are gone
Not a shadow in sight
You'll be drenched in the sun
With open eyes

 

I been avoiding him since then, last time i talked to that person was in June, before i started my 2nd semester (my last).. it was a hard decision. But when i looked back, a few months before, i was stupid, or even crazy to cry for  months for someone that'll never be mine. i have to understand what's not mine won't be mine no matter how i cry, be sad, or beg for it to change.. MIXED feeling preceded this..i was angry,annoyed, mostly, sad. 

I felt like my sanity comes n goes back then. february to May i kept crying. tried pretending that im strong, i was ok. THE TRUTH is, Allah knows. 

He was having the time of his life, and since we met online, it means nothing at all to him, he got almost a perfect fiancee, he's contented. it's like they both, just the 2- of -them -against -the- world feeling. There's no need to care bout anyone else. That's what happen when ppl are in love i think. Love is a force. It's unstoppable at its best. So, who was I compared to her. NOTHING. that's right.

He couldnt even put himself in my shoes. critisized me even. Changed from caring to cold. Wow! 

In June, l made it clear to myself, i will start to let go. for 4 months i kept it together, but i missed my friend in October. i cried mutely in Ramadhan when i received a messege from that person. That was when we met. Ramadhan.

On Eid, i was the person he greets on first Eid, but then on 3rd...no need to care right. pathetic me. His fiancee is more important that time HEY,WAKE UP!

I did miss the friendship so much , i couldnt talk to him as always, it always hurts me to pretend. and i resent what had happened.

what i do now is, open my eyes, widely, He'll be married next year. will be someone's husband. I cant want someone else's anything can i? They love each other after the taaruf, which as a "normal" friend, i should be happy about. (which is the hardest thing to do).

So, whats done is done. Tho it was hard, i gradually pull myself together. I'm holding on to this, WHEN ALLAH TAKES SOMETHING/SOMEONE  YOU LOVE, DOESNT MEAN ALLAH HATES YOU, INSTEAD, HE WILL GRANT SOMETHING/SOMEONE MUCH MUCH BETTER THAN U THINK U WANT..

Indeed, Allah is our creator, Allah knows what we need, HE knows us best! Make a lot of dua, and ikhtiar, InsyaAllah the turn out will be the best as it can be.

LET GO,your hands are full lol

IF YOU DONT LET GO OF THE BAD YOU ARE HOLDING ON TO, 

HOW WILL  ALLAH GIVE YOU ONE THE GOOD THAT YOU'RE MEANT TO HAVE ? =)

and this lyrics says it all...

You can't turn back the hands of time 

Just let it go and you'll be fine  

What's done is done and its alright  

You cant turn back the hands of time