SHOPAHOLIC virus????????????????????????????????????

i think i just got bit &  infected by a Shopping bug!!!

i have to go out everyday and spend money . ON ANYTHING! anything at all! i feel like a transgressor and im being too much, the more gulity i feel, the more shopping i do!!

O Allah what is this?? what have i done!!!!!!!!!!

i couldnt help it. everytime i want to eat, i'll eat out with Fani. it's not like we cant eat at the mahallah cafetaria. it's not like they stop serving wholesome food, WE JUST HAVE TO EAT OUT!!*see, it is contagious, this "bug" bites, and 'infected' me, i infect Fani*

and we spend like ca-razy! on clothes, hijab, makeup,  *thats me..i been craving for DIOR n now im DIOR addict!!!* and  skincare (tho we already have much)   H-E-L-P!!!

i got my sk ii stuff and Dior makeup primer in February, then the shopping spree went on and on and on........... giler!!!!!!!

 i hate myself for this. my money runs out like the pipe water in our kitchen! aku dah pokai la,dah dah la kuar shopping nyerrrr

the fragile heart is to be gentle with...

A woman's heart is fragile. dont go around breaking it as u please. you know when she loves, she desires to be your last.. it doesn't matter if shes not the first.

i paraphrase UAI, if you're not marrying a woman, haram for you to give her expectation of marriage be it words, or actions..

If you have no intention whatsoever of marrying a woman. dont give her the wrong signal to "test your market" ,boost your manly ego, fooling around sweet talking to  girls as if you're MISTER UNIVERSE, so handsome that everyone wants u duhhhh so vain. hahah..that's lame. 

what's cool:

BE A REAL MAN. DON'T APPROACH HER. APPROACH HER WALI. *ketaq is manly lol*

 

remember, Allah sees everything.. He knows what's in our hearts.

when a heart breaks, in pain...HE knows..WHAT GOES AROUND WILL GO BACK AROUND..no exception. may be it won't happen to the doer..maybe the doer's son, or daughter so the doer takes lesson * if he does the reflective thinking lar..kalau x dia memang xde MUHASABAH diri. xguner! lol*

AND

karma has no menu..u get served what you deserve...

so girls, based on my observation in my mature age *baru 22 hahaha* sweet talkers are the most easy to track. they say stuff they dont mean to  girls,same thing being rephrase to suit the girl and situation lol.n ya,they literally dont mean it lol. booya! 

so beware. take care of your heart . For the love of your life, MR. HUBBY

Such a clutz!!

I feel old LOL!! I cant believe myself what ive forgotten !

#1  Kinokuniya story..

I went to the bookstore at KLCC to get novels for my course subject. We have to read a novel and critically analyzed it in order to write a term paper later on .i just needed one but I was in a bit of dilemma, I chose and bought 3 hahahah! 

I’m a bit paranoid.. I’m afraid if I bought one, the story doesn’t provide much for me to evaluate later on when I write my paper, so three .. 

I browsed 2 weeks for those books. It was 5, narrowed down to 3 ..From 3, I like 2, and from the two, I can’t chose one lol ..  I waited a week to finally decide a book to read and criticize! lamanyer.. nak pilih buku jer..

So actually this entry is regarding my clumsiness..meningkat umo, makin kalut jadinyer .

I went to get those books using my 1 Malaysia Book Voucher. Hmm lot of  ‘steps’ involved! I had to go here and there. So unsystematic! They have lots of counters! I went to the front one to use it, they  said I had to verify it at the back counter first. I went to check at the customer service counter where everyone lined up to use their vouchers. 

So it was my turn, and the one who was to verify mine was really annoying I had to write my name all over again. Tak sama pulak dahhh! I have a mouthful name, I missed one so had to write it all back down.

 I went to Sephora before; I had their paper bag with me. I put the remaining voucher inside with my phone and stuff bought on the counter……

Finished writing my name on 3 vouchers *used 150* I went to the paying counter to get all this over with coz I was hungry, I wanted to makan!!! 

I went to the nearest counter, but they said pay at the entrance cashier. So I went there. I lined up in the wrong line lol . The left was for cash, the right one was for 1 Malaysia book voucher =P maluu.. booya!. *xmalu sgt la* 

When I was abt to “pay” the cashier said there was quite amount left as balance, we don’t pay back balance per voucher ..WHAT………………………………………………..?
 *penatla aku*

She said I need 1 more book priced rm20 -22 …I went back to the shelves… I wanted to get notebooks but she said stationary cannot, only academic books. But later on when I finally had rm4 left, she said could be used for stationary; I just want to say ES- TI- YU- PID right now.

While browsing for the rm20 something book, an announcement was made. My full name was called *malu malu*. I went again to the customer service counter.. 

one of the worker  handed me my Sephora paper bag!!! With my phone in  it!! 

I took it, thanked her, n quickly went out. thank god i left my book  voucher in there. I didn’t even realize my phone wasn’t with me!!! *Tua dah aku..*

 i just bought stuff worth 300, my phone and book voucher were in there. Pheww.. i got them back. Thank god there is still kindness in this world kan....

#2 Dominos story.

i went out with a friend after umm "accomplishing" our 'mission' to change section for our weekend 0.5 credited cocoricular activity into another section a day after the date to change group was issued haha..pegi menyusahkan kerani CCAC ... he didnt get angry or anythin..bagoslar ..i didnt wana pull off my drama queen self out there..

we dropped by to try our luck actually. and said we want to drop the subject and take the niche area activity ( i dont like the sun, my friend was aiming for that one hommagad!) so thx Allah we didnt get it LOL

the clerk advised us not to drop. he said it is easier if we finish cocoricular activity fast!! yeah! serabot jer.. i didnt wana drop. i just wanted to change group..if we drop then we had to pay rm300 per adjustment, he said it can only be reduced to rm 150 ..* i rather purchase my Dior Forever liquid Foundation i been craving with that amount of money* hahah..

i said to him, ok out of favour, can u plz change our group to a  Malaysian instructor group coz we find that we have a problem with this  current instrctor *not that im THAT racist, im more comfortable with Malaysian instructor better*

he asked for a reason pulak..alaaaa..

then one reason i find always work in every situation is Kang Gary's STRESS tagline lol

hey it worked ok =P  

 

i told him this current instructor made me stressed out. acute stress actually. he's nice but strict. i just wana have fun on saturday u know. on weekdays it's already a lecture week, so i expect weekend to be relaxing..fine lar nak lecture jugak, but be it light.. so i told him

'sy xbole la dengan cikgu tu, sy stress!" 

stress mcm mana pulak?

then i told him the above passage i just told u guys lol. then he brought out a list name of cocuricular instructor, schedule for the coco activity and asked me to pick the instructor i want .he suggested DR. someone someone i dont remember..

"DR ni ok ,dia kawan sy. dy kelaka"

ha bole la ..klaka ..oh kawan eh? dia garang x?

"garang? mana la sy tau cara dia aja dlm kelas"    

tapi dr. salu stress .  xnak lar nant stress

so all the stress stress conversation went on  ..finally i pick someone without DR preceding her name.. hopefully shes fun and not a lioness in shaa allah. ill enter her class next week hehe.

actually the story should circle around my wrist watch LOL

my friend and i went to Dominos pizza to indulge ourselves after our "achievement" changing the class section without any money being withdrawn from the bank..pheww!! nasib baik dia baik hati!

we went back Maghrib. we had to rush for the prayer. umm..

I left my watch at the ablution area!!!! 

guess what...........???

i didnt notice it wasnt on me wrist till the next dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

IM GROWING old!!!  * wailing*

upon realizing that i left it at the mosque, i said to Allah, i really love that watch *i really do!!* . it was the  first watch i bought for myself and i love it dearly. plzz take care of it for me.

i was to REDHA oredy

i went to the mosque at 10..then i looked up the lost and found list on the wall of female praying area. none wrote they found anythin on the date.. 

i went down to the ablution area where i think i lost it.. err all lampu were off it was so dark i didnt dare to go down lol ..no way! i couldnt find the switch either anyway.. so i went up to the praying area.. umm fixing my hijab in front of the mirror.. .

ok , lawa dah...ready to go back hostel. 


 then i looked down to the Quran Rihal(holder *i think*) below the mirror  with a statistics textbook on it ..*heh..weird* 


there it was!!!!!!

my wrist watch smiling up at me !!! =) * i was imaginative and happy alright*. i wonder how did it get there? 
 

i picked my baby up, put it on, and ran!  lol  

i cant believe im such a klutz these days... i think im in need for Gingko Brahmi to improve my focus ..*excuse*


 i looked for it,at the local pharmacies months back but to no avail...Restock ur Gingko Brahmi Guardian and Watsons!! dont lazy lazy!!! hahaha 

      

 

                                                                                           

i can drive now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha ! so excited..  ive completed my P license in 12 days!!! shy la..it's finished when im 22, old oredy =P

i passed alhamdulillah =) . JPJ test yesterday..

i dont wanna be a despondent girl who cant drive.

this driving license journey had been dramatic *i exaggerate a bit ahaha*

i shud start in 2008, but had to join PLKN so it got delayed.

i went to matrics in 2009-2010..my dad drives me as usual.

i went to CFS iium 2010-2011..so no time for driving license..

oh, my left foot sole infected with plantar wart at the end of my CFS IIUM year (2011) holiday, so cannot pursue driving license..i couldn't even walk properly, let alone pressing the clutch.. it was really really hard to walk, cant put pressure at all on that foot, imagined how i walked! i limped!!  looked so cacat ='(   had to go hospital several times for a series of cryotherapy ( very cold gas that kills plantar wart), and use salicylic acid oitment, and by the time i enrolled IIUM GOMBAK, i could walk normally again =)

had to renew L license several times coz i only have the time allocated for driving during sememster break.in the beginning of 2012, i went for L license class and  got it, but the driving instructor followed no timetable, not committed , and wasted my 3 months hols reserved to complete my driving license, i changed my driving school.


although my new driving instructor sleeps while teaching, and always late at the beginning, he taught me well la kot, thats the hikmah...he never shouted at me, nor got angry ( cos he's always asleep i guess hahaha), never cancelled the class like my previous instructor..overall ok la i guess. the process sped up, not like the previous one. i reserved 3 months, my last driving instructor  wasted it. new instructor was given 3 weeks, and the license is complete!!

18 jan - learnt to park
19 jan  - drove on road

21 jan - bukit and drove on road
22 jan - parking and bukit emphasis lol
23 jan - qualification test (18/20) - yesss! my driving doesn't kill other road users!! lol

27 jan - practice on the road with my dad! he taught me to potong lorries. i had fun!he got scared lol

29 jan- practice for JPJ test
30 jan - JPJ test and passed =)

TIME

 time is gold.. time is money..many expressions have been umm " developed" to show how precious time is right?

it is indeed precious. we cant turn back time not even a second!!

and as a university student, now i know how to value time better than before actually. im more mindful about da time now compared to before. and i get agitated when PEOPLE make me waste a minute of it!

well, actually im writing because it happened like everyday, to me, now that im resuming my driving license yg xsiap2 tuh.... i started yesterday. and today..

yesterday should start at 3pm. it finally started somewhere around 4.10 pm. so undisciplined ass driving instructor! i hate him!

he said after the Friday prayer, he took a nap and he planned to fetch me at the hospital (coz they dont fetch at home -it's far from the driving school- hospital is nearer) at 2.30pm... it was raining.. and i understand if the lesson couldn't go on.

but what made me really agitated was that, he wasn't mindful of the time, gave petty excuses that pissed me off, and didn't answer calls and didn't reply messages. I NEEDED TO COMMUNICATE TO MAKE THINGS EASY YA KNOW! errrr stupid! at least tell if he was gonna be a bit late like "i'll be half an hour late. sorry" that would do. some RUDE driving instructor he is! god im so angry!

and today, supposedly i was fetched from the hospital, at 4pm ,just like we dealt during registration. but the clerk from driving school called and asked my dad to send me to the track where they teach to drive. i mean, deal is deal right. Fine lar,lets not make a big deal outa it. today is Saturday, my dad is on leave, how about next Monday and Tuesday? he's working la *******!!!!!!! erghhhhhhhh!! what a stupid system. IF THIS IS HOW MALAYS WORK, you're not gonna go far man! just tellin.. not punctual, and he didn't even apologize or anything. rude so rude.. me and my dad had to look for him! when we found him he was eating, didn't bother to greet or i dono shake hands and give salam to my dad... gosh some ppl are born to be rude or what?

when i asked " supposedly at 4 right?" he answered "ya" i reply " what's the time now?" he said " it's normal..cant always be on time..had other things to do" .

what the............ i mean couldn't he settled whatever he wanted to settle before 4pm?! god this creature annoys me everyday! and one more thing, he always sleeps when he teaches me ya. no bluff it's true. no use paying such people right. useless.

yesterday i learnt to park, today i drove on the road. i liked it. but i feel like slapping his face bcoz he slept when i was driving. he was supposed to show me route A,B,C for the test..but he slept. i dono whether he had shown the the right routes for the JPJ  test.how did u think that made me feel!

does it hurt to be courteous and mindful of the time??? does it?! my dad paid u, so teach la!

ppl say u cant have it all YOUR way. well if this is the way, i really have to stand up for it right?

oh, i changed my driving school from ELIT to PMC (kuantan) because the former driving instructor wasnt commited. he didnt follow the schedule and i kinda had limited time to complete my license as i only have the chance to learn driving during my semester break . and i have passed one short sem for it. i need to speed it up. prior to non committed driving instructor that i changed my driving school. i thought it would get better. it turns out to be WORSE! WORSE!! a lot worse.

my former instructor was a lot a lot puctual though he didnt prepare me a schedule ( that was wat i hate). and he informed a day before.. if he says at 10 am. at 10.02am he's at the gate already.
he teaches me well
he's a lot cleaner
his car is newer
he's courteous and friendly
he fecth me from home, then send me back

this new instructor, to me is a pighead!

old car - its red. red is ugly now lol
not punctual. one hour late!
not clean
rude
sleep while teaching ( i dono how u hold on to ur job really)
dont fetch nor send home
doesnt reply texts on whereabouts and doesnt pickup calls.

EVERYONE, LEARN FROM MY MISTAKE. I FEEL SO STUPID CHANGING MY DRIVING SCHOOL :'(

god i hate him. i just want to get my license done, cant stand seeing his face anymore.and i pity my dad, his work is interrupted coz of this rude pig.

room8s or dorm8s

yeah im sure everybody got roomate when they go to college... from all KINDS ..HMM...

dormmates

i went to PLKN . it's like national service during interval period between high school and college. i went for 3 months. it was COMPULSORY. i hated it. seriously. and i mean it. I HATED IT. i feel like it's a TOTAL WASTE OF TIME  and tiring.. yeah.. and did i meantion i got bullied? yeah i did.since i m the only gurl in da family ,i didnt relly know how to mingle with mass ppl.didnt mean i hadnt try. i did. so this plkn thingy was my first time leaving home and stay in a dorm full of other gurls..-turned out to be bitches mostly. im not gonna be polite writing this lol.. (p/s : to identify bitches : when u being nice n smile to em, they look at u like a maggot or uve killed one of their family members o sth..when u walk away, they stare n stare then laugh out loud like some crazy cows *thats too long i know. but thats how they r*)- i dono whats wrong with their smile muscles. prolly distorted coz theyre partly retarded lol.


so i went . and i dono abt everyone else, for me, if i go to new places , i make peace with everyone, i wana be friends with everyone. but hey, not everyone wants the same thing i did. ya i was little naive.. so what! i was 17 turning 18. umm there were like 23 o sth girls in a dorm. i wished to be a part of them . come on, when u go to a new place there'll be strangers right.. i smiled and be friendly to everyone.i wanted to make friends! some ppl told me PLKN would be fun! *taik kucing kau*
 i thought i did nothing wrong. i guess those clans were BITCHES CLANS, so it didnt work. i didnt know how to identify bitches clan back then hahaha.they dont like u being nice. ok .. just walk away far far if u found any. they 'll make ur life miserable. i had it for 3 months.. i dono what i did to make em hate me.

well actually. i was not relly a friendly person . i know only to smile n reply questions. i wont be the one who say hi first... thats not me.. thatd be weird if i do.. haha thats not Aliaa

and i assume when u answer questions and smile it'd be enough but no.... u have to be FUN to fit in? i was a nerd and i mind my own bizness.. whoaa ! i was doing it wrong! big time

rule #1 U DONT ISOLATE URSELF IN BED WHEN THEY MAKE CIRCLE AND TALK...u go in! and say hi to everyone. get it?.. i mean this is during the beginning.. when people dono people yet.. ok.. not after a week or two! it wont work.

 i think i talked to only people who greeted me, so others thought im a SNOB. besides i have naturally arrogant face * which is not my fault la giler!* . some find me friendly and warm when i reply questions and smile. i didnt know how to break the ice OMG! i did ask questions but i went krik krik krik after the 3rd questions haha. dulu my social skill sux!

oh ya i eat alone . i mean till today i dont like waiting for people . to eat. to class.. i mean why shud i wait. i got life to do.

rule #2 if you do stuff alone, people look at you as weirdo not INDEPENDENT * gosh! ppl change this perception. it's friggin lame!*

i think that was how they look at me and avoided being friends with me.




im not done yet. later. i get lazy

how about our first LOVE?

kalau  cinta Allah kita xdapat, mcm mana nak dapat cinta hamba2 DIA yg soleh, solehah tuuuuuu

 yep.. so if we feel sad, alone, pathethic (can i say that? lol ) or anythin like these, remember our first love

 ..have we satisfied our first love wills and commands? if we cant even fulfilled Allah's injunctions and get ourselves showered with HIS great love, blessings and mercy ,then how do we expect to have the love of HIS  creations ?

why chase and beg for the love that isnt certain ,when we have the ETERNAL LOVE watching and guiding us all along through all this time? have we thank HIM? have we reciprocate that love??


get hold firmly to Allah's love, HE will direct us to the ones we deserve ..XOXO

my mistake.lesson learnt.

i bought this from FOREVER 21 last Friday and been wearing it ( rasa nak ber-eksesori tetiba).. and  suddenly my friend told me it's related to Freemason thingy! and it's haraam????? i ignored it coz she usually blurt out random stuff haha.... im torn now  ..i bought it coz it's cute, and vintage..something i like coz it's round and looks nice on me neck... my intention is just to wear this cute necklace coz to me, it looks good on , and it's just an OWL! for crying out loud!  but apemende plak kaitan ngn Freemason nyerrr

i did some googling and again im torn. Muslims are not supposed to wear animal or any other creatures  that posess RUH ...like this very owl... aigooo! i relly like it! why lar it's not a rose! why do u have to be an owl! i relly relly like this!

and plus ya, it's kinda related to Freemason .. it's symbol or sth..but owl with one extra eye.. my intention is nothing like this and when i bought it, i didnt know at all.. so i guess hmmm =( .... i stop wearing this little cutie necklace larr

screenshot from a source..outa many sources i googled.

and i read solat is valid with it, but we're sinned wearing it coz look what stated above..

i love u ALLAH

alhamdulillah for everything..guide me all the way to YOU please..YOUR LOVE saves me everytime,and makes me stronger

"And the redirection will always, always blow your mind.
Let it go. Just trust."

SUPER TRUE..talkin based on experience...

i didnt hit anything...phewww

im learning how to drive now...finally got the courage..dah tua2 baru nak belajar haha.. i wana be "functional" independent woman so i relly need to pull this off  no matter what... dont wanna be the damsel in distress and have to take a taxi or need someone to drive me here and there...have to make my parents realise that im an adult..
 ( which i too have to take some time to "digest" that im now 21!) krik krik krik krik...i dont like growing old...sobsss

life goes on..

so i was supposed to go to my driving school with the instructor today... my driving instructor was supposed to call .. but he didnt ..so no class today...

i relly hate it! he taught me just for abt one hour and expect me to be an expert.. im a girl hello! mmg la lambat tangkap! ada ke suruh aku masok parking terus...dah aku ni reverse gear pon xbtol.. kalau aku bawak sume org bole mati! ( i know im dramatic...)

what i like is that i have 2 bros which obviously know how to drive and to move that car!

i like them teaching me compared to my dad or my driving teacher...seriously...they are 19 (with driving license) and 16 (without)... just now i just spent 2 hours learning with my youngest bro. he drives like my dad!

it's like u will loose ur heartbeat in the process if u dont buckle up LIKE....but i feel safe...somehow.. lol. thats how my dad drives..he doesnt believe in slowing down i guess haha..thats how my youngest bro terperecuk below the passenger seat when he was 2...i was holding him but i lost grip lol

so anyway, i think it's easier to pick up what my bros taught me compare to the instructor.. im more relax, and the car is in control.. i like it!

and ya, i scream several times when there were kids running around... or prior to a sight of incoming lorry... girls scream u know..so let me scream ... malu la jugak bila the engine stops at junctions.. i was practicing around our neighbourhood.. and umm when i screamed, yeah, ppl saw............ehemm ehemm adat la aku baru belajar..=P

and my bro was like " why u let go the clutch so fast..why is it too the left.. y r u no relax when u turn at junctions..why so slow...r u gonna hit the bins? go right a bit.. dont break like dat....." like a grandpa, but a good instructor grandpa! thanks la adik ..ko aja kakak

my youngest bro drives like my dad and hes like a pro oredy...my younger bro, 19, he drives carefully...nothing wrong with dat.. just i see that my youngest bro is more like my dad n  the middle bro his way  is more like me mom huhu.. me, i dono lar how i drive soon.i'll try my best not to cause harm to ppl lol

.hopefully i cud finish my license before going back to school...i dont want to hold back my next short sem bcoz of this license thingy..

xsaba aku nak bwk keter seniri!