2014

it is 7 months past 2014 lol ... long time no blog..

i feel a little bit deserted this year. i dono if deserted is the right word. i think it is 'unfortunate' .yeah. lets use that.

actually, im invited to  weddings of a few good friends, and sadly, i think i cannot attend those.

it sort of breaks my heart because these people, are the ones that i went to school with, or lived with (dormmate), and it is not like i live abroad that i cannot come, it is just that i am currently doing short semester ( for Arabic language) and the dates clashes with my short sem schedule!!! it is either near my final exam date or later than my hari raya break!! so sad right!

and know what? when i didnt feel like doing short semesters for the last 3 years, no one gets married!! now that im doing short semester, everybody gets married! haaaaaa ! :'(

they are 4 pairs - and they all pick either in middle of this month, august, and september!! short sem starts 23rd june till august. then we have like 2 weeks break. in September a new long semester starts!

Couple #1 is my dormate when i was in Nilai IIUM CFS. of course i want to go!! but it is held in Kelantan. how am i suppose to go to Kelantan when the date is approaching final exam :(

couple #2  is my schoolmate. i was really really happy when she told us the news in June. i was literally happy as if im the one who's getting married hahahha . over kan?  :P yeah i know.  she's the nicest, she was like a big sister to me. during my secondary school years, i faced the truth about my bff *now i hate that bitch-in my world she's dead* which was really hard to digest, i cried...she was the one who was there for me. listened to me and lifted me up when i was down. i befriended her till today. i remember the first time she talked to me during our orientation week. we were 13, now 23 ..and one of us is getting married.. hmm and i cannot come....

this is so unfair! my schoolmates are going to be there.. it will be like a reunion. When a few of us left for boarding school after PMR or some after SPM, we never get to  meet again , now is the chance, and i, unfortunately cant seize this oppotunity. hate this short sem thingy!! shittttttttttttttttttttt

couple #3 - secondary school sweethearts ( they met when she was 14 and he was 16 and everyone including the teachers were against it bhahahhaha  *hey now they ARE getting married ..so lucky. we thought it wasnt gonna work .

couple #4 the guy was my-sort of maths tutor when i was really bodoh in form 3 maths lol . he taught me, and till today i appreciate his help. i got A ok for the pre-PMR mathematics exam. usually i got B. hahah stupid right ekekeke . he's marrying someone from Brunei. wow! i personally like Brunei people. i think they are better choice than malaysians. Their Islamic Jurisprudence is way better implemented ,and practised than we do in Malaysia. im just being honest yah? and   it's like interracial marriage but not really hahaha.. and the Brunei people are richer than us. so financially, no worry much.

 im gonna miss their wedding because of this petty reason.

i feel like they all are conspiring to get married during my short sem ! they dont want me to come LOL * yeah i sound so self centered, their save- the- date has nothing to do with my life laa. haha

im not that fascinated to go to weddings. i like free delicious food, but to stay long in a wedding reception that is held outdoor is not my cup of tea. i like indoor receptions .. so cozy .ada air cond hahahah

maybe it is not a big deal to some people, but i think it is important to celebrate and be there for those you are close with, and people get married ONCE in a lifetime ( in shaa allah) and as an invited friend, i would like to be present on your wedding day!!! why did u guys pick these dates instead of other dates!!!!! 

so deppressing ok. other friends who doesnt enroll in short sem can attend these weddings! 

orang kata amik berkat datang wedding orang haha..lepas ni maybe turn kau. tp i cant even attend their wedding so xyah nak berkat sangat la kan! hahaha kesian aku.

barakallah everybody. I AM SAD these dates clash with everything.  May Allah bless your marriage, may your love always flourish till Jannah .Ameen. Congratulations to all my friends!

my fourth semester ....

ive finished my final paper for this semester on the 4th january !! ( 28 dec,30 dec,31 dec,3 jan ) so happy!

alhamdulillah.

actually, this is the first semester that my papers end really early!

ive been studying here for 4 semester now, for 3 semesters i could just watch the joy of others packing and leaving early ... i had 2 semesters which my last papers were on the last day of exam week! the other semester was just 3 days early from the last day...

so, this semester, i know what it feels like to finish early haha! :)

it was really exhausting. Plus, i cant drink coffee.i drank it one  morning,because i wanted to get rid  of the sleepiness prior to waking up so early that morning to study. what happened was, until the next morning, i felt TIRED!!! and i could sleep! shits haha

and i think i really didnt get much time to study because the papers were only like 2 or one day apart ... but im kinder to myself this semester .

i dont think there's any use of dean's list anymore. 

my CGPA is 3.6 every semester since last semester of foundation till my previous 3rd semester. alhamdulillah. i did it all by Allah's  help. 

i did apply for scholarship on the 1st semester, but didnt get any. and im stuck with PTPTN. this is what you get in this country hahah *roll eyes*

and im a third year student next semester. i dont think they would sponsor a 3rd  year student right?

so if im still in the dean's list. it's a present for my parents like always . i do it only for them. i think thats the only thing i could do to make umi and abah happy since im not yet working, and have any money to give them hahhaha ... good cgpa will do for now :p


i want to be kinder to my self ..more relax for this sem and next sem.. the last 3 semesters were intense. i was practically "planting" the base of my academic performance. only if i think i have done that, i wont be THAT intense about study anymore...and i think i have ... so next sem would be a laid-back semester.. ekeke..

when you are in your  1st year, rumours i heard before i enroll my bachelor, you can only retain good results in 1st and 2nd year then 3rd and 4th is like, if you're lucky and you study like crazy, only you could.. yeah im not that hardworking. i get stressed hahah..

im just sharing. im excited this semester because i get to know how it feels like to finish exams early. but i dont leave for home on the 4th . i will leave on the 12th because i want to feel the freedom being in campus without having the obligatory to do ANYTHING!  feels heavenly!

i have 8 days of doing-nothing days after my last paper! most people would leave for home in no time but i want to feel how it feels like living here with no assignment to submit, no class every morning ..

just 8 days of sleep compensations, going out, movie marathon and watch everyone else  suffer from final exam still HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA! *evil laugh*

i dont want to go back kuantan yet. in KL it's easier to move about, but when im in Kuantan, i feel caged a bit. they only good thing is to see my family :)

so im taking this 8 days of freedom to enjoy this good feeling :p i love malls !

i have 3 weeks holiday ahead of me after 12th january. till then im just gonna stay here and being a lazy bum! lol



to those who are burning the midnight's oil for final exam, be presevere, you know hard work will pay off :)


1- Ask Allah for help everytime in your prayers .
2- read early not last minute like me hahaha
3- mind map and write things u read is REALLY HELPFUL *works for me*
4- when you're dealing with many topics, read the chapter summary first before you read the whole chapter so you get the gist of each chapter.
5- re-read the notes or mind map early in the morning when your brain is fresh
6- for those who cant have caffeine like me, try mineral water and washing your face regularly. *agony right haha*
7- practice  read n' redha priciple  :)

if you had given your best, there's nothing to regret.whatever result you get after that, you know what is meant to be, will be. so accept things you can't change.exam hall is like a battle field.so when you enter, do literally EVERYTHING that could win you the "BATTLE" yeah?!

Allah will give us what we expect so be OPTIMIST and make dua.

keep me in your dua :) id love to be in the dean's list again if i may

after 12 years of the worst one ...

Kuantan , Pahang December 2013 ,3 december onwards ..

flood. involving my home!! news reported Kuantan is 50% SANK. and my home area become headlines. thats bad! it's historic for our family, and of course it's the worst in Kuantan history. Malls sank etc... everybody suffered.

i got update from my dad that our house sank. only rooftop could be seen. all our belongings at home sank including 2 cars, 2 motor bikes ..everything

my parents and bro at shelter now. no electricity . cant recharge their phone to keep me and my younger bro updated.

Alhamdulillah, they are all well. im worried abt my mom ..i know my dad and bro are strong enough to handle this. my mom cant move well because of gout . im so worried abt her emotions and all .

they got out bringing clothes only.2 am. it's sad coz i heard there's not enough food. my dad told me there's no electricity, only candles ...

it is seriously worse than the worst one 12 years ago... Flood at Kuantan in 2001... masa tu paras tingkap je but this time, hanya atap rumah je yg nampak...

my dad told me  they didnt get to save anything because they thought the flood will go down in 1-2 days..but it gets worsen. they didnt expect it to be this worse. and i read headlines . the rain that contributed to this : 15 days rain in 1 day . i dono how to put it in better words but in a day , the rain falls non stop equal to 15 days rain, for one day. sorry my description sux hehe

Ya Allah, not that we dont appreciate the rain as rizq, but please, ease what we have to go through ...im in campus and im worried abt my family in Kuantan.

id like to keep myself updated but there's no electricity.

i hope those who could help can send help immidietly .. u dont have to go around Asean to offer help. help your own people first!

dont ruin it DJs ...FOR CRYING OUT LOUD IT'S A WEDDING!!

have u been to wedding receptions with Dj playing the "wrong song " for wedding? seriously. it bothers me A LOT ! 

in weddings, u might expect, not might, u would expect romantic ,slow ballad ,beautiful love songs to be played celebration ur union to ur loved one right? 

what if the Dj u hire plays the off songs, not accordance to the wedding. to me, although this seems like a  small matter, if it were my wedding, it sets my mood off .... 

if it were my weeding, id seriously be upset! 

i have been to wedding reception whose dj played Crazy Frog song.. dude, it's a wedding , not a teen wild party ..... seriously u gotta do better job if u want to keep it.

it's annoying. i was eating,and like "  what the heck ...." 

i think that's not the worst . ive been to a wedding reception, the Dj announced soccer result . 

can u believe it ? soccer result !!! 

also , wedding whose dj played nasyid songs . there's nothing wrong with nasyid songs ( good remembrance) but pick those which are align with the occasion! where ive been to, it was nasyid about remembrance of death ... it's good .really good but , it's a wedding .....

it'd be better if the songs are celebrating the love of the newlyweds , praying for their happiness and god blessings for here, and Hereafter. 

like this one from maher zain .

                                                             "Masha Allah"

Agmal farha hiyya
Youm farahko, da shee’ akeed
Zekrayatel leila deyyah
Hadra mesh momkin tegheeb

The most beautiful joy is
On your wedding day - that's for sure
This night's memories
Will always be present and can never fade away

Ehsasel youm dah
Meen fikom yensah
‘Ala toul tegma’ko ahla hayah

The way you feel on this day
How can any of you ever forget it?!
The most beautiful life shall unite you forever

Agmal farha fel hayat kol leila
Helween wallah… Allah Allah
Masha Allah… Masha Allah
Ya salam ya salam, ma tbarko yahl Allah 

Tonight is the biggest happiness in your life
By Allah, you're both beautiful! Allah Allah
Allah has willed it… Allah has willed it
What a joy, what a joy!
Let's congratulate them, everyone!

Ento ‘ala sounnet Nabina
Geeto we katabtol kitab
Wehna tayral farha bina
Welleiladil alb daab

In accordance with our Prophet's teachings
You did the marriage contract ('Aqd-Nikah)
And we're overjoyed for the two of you
And our hearts are melting with happiness on this night

Ehsasel youm dah
Meen fikom yensah
‘Ala toul tegma’ko ahla hayah

The way you feel on this day
How can any of you ever forget it?!
The most beautiful life shall unite you forever

Agmal farha fhayatkol leila
Helween wallah… Allah Allah
Masha Allah… Masha Allah
Ya salam ya salam, ma tbarko yahl Allah 

Tonight is the biggest happiness in your life
By Allah, you're both beautiful! Allah Allah
Allah has willed it… Allah has willed it
What a joy, what a joy!
Let's congratulate them, everyone!

Oulou masha Allah
We ya Rabb te’ishou ahla sneen
Oulou masha Allah
We ya mahla zougeen salheen
Rabbena yegma’ko wayya ba’d fel Gannah
Rabbena yeg’alko toulel ‘omr metfahmeen 

Say: "Allah has willed it"
And may you live the happiest of years
Say: "Allah has willed it"
And how beautiful it is to see such a pious couple!
May Allah unite you together in Paradise
And may He make you live your whole life together in harmony

Agmal farha fhayatkol leila
Helween wallah… Allah Allah
Masha Allah… Masha Allah
Ya salam ya salam, ma tbarko yahl Allah

Tonight is the biggest happiness in your life
By Allah, you're both beautiful! Allah Allah
Allah has willed it… Allah has willed it
What a joy, what a joy!
Let's congratulate them, everyone!

or this one that congratulates them on their day :) 

Barakallah

We're here on this Special Day

Our hearts are full Of pleasure

A day that brings the two of you

Close Together

We're gathered here to celebrate

A moment you'll always treasure

We ask Allah to make your love

Last forever

Let's raise our hands and make du'a

Like the prophet taught us

And with one voice let's all

Say...say...say

Barakallahu lakuma wa baraka

Alaikumaa wa jama'a bainakuma fii khaiiir

From now you'll share all your joys

Through hardships,support each other

Together worshiping Allah

Seeking His Pleasure

We pray that He will feed your life

With Happiness and Blessings

And grant your Kids

who make your home filled with laughter

Let's raise our hands and make du'a

Like the prophet taught us

And with one voice let's all

Say...say...say

Barakallahu lakuma wa baraka

Alaikumaa wa jaama'a bainakuma fii khaiiir

Barakallah

Barakallahu lakuumwalanaa

Allah bariklawhuma

Allah Hadhum hubbahuma

Allah Solli wasallim a'la rasulillah

Allah tub'alaina

Allah irdha anna

Allah ihdhi khuthoona a'la sunnat nabiina

Let's raise our hands and make du'a

Like the prophet taught us

And with one voice let's all

Say...say...say

Barakallahu lakuma wa baraka

Alaikumaa wa jaama'a bainakuma fii khaiiir

see? even dua that Rasulullah practiced ...nice eh?

and girls would love to be serenaded by this, on their wedding day .. 

                                                          For The Rest Of My Life

I praise Allah for sending me you my love

You found me home and sail with me

And I`m here with you

Now let me let you know

You`ve opened my heart

I was always thinking that love was wrong

But everything was changed when you came along

OOOOO

And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you.loving you

For the rest of my life

Through days and night

I`ll thank Allah for opening my eyes

Now and forever I...I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

I feel so blessed when I think of you

And I ask Allah to bless all we do

You`re my wife and my friend and my strength

And I pray we`re together in Jannah

Now I find myself i feel so strong

yes, everything was changed when you came along

OOOO

And there's a couple word I want to say

 For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you.loving you

For the rest of my life

Through days and night

I`ll thank Allah for opening my eyes

Now and forever I...I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

and now that you`re here

In front of me

 I strongly feel love

And I have no doubt

And I`m singing loud 

that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you...loving you..

For the rest of my life

Through days and nights

I`ll thank Allah 

for opening my eyes

Now and forever I..

.I`ll be there for you

I know it deep in my heart...

i melt every time ...aww... 

there are many more. the point is DJs ...

please please, this isn't about you , if u wanna announce soccer result , do it in appropriate occasion. a wedding is a wedding .... it's love, celebration of two hearts, romantic, slow ,beautiful songs! dont stain it with anything else beside these ya..

i dont like surprises

especially on birthday.. because it wont be surprising. i even hide my bday on FB..  coz only people who really care remembers .. and by doing that, i know who they are. thank u. alhamdulillah for this gift Allah :)

it's ur bday.u'll know it right? people acting all weird , avoided u, keeping secrets .. lol

i dono how to react really.. usually, i just play along because they are nice people, good ones who remember and celebrate my birth anniversary

but im truly grateful for that. i want to reciprocate what they do . thank you.

but personally, i do like presents n cake, and everyone gather for me, but i hate surprises.. 

i prefer , on my birthday, people ask me to a restaurant or anything filled the table with cake and food n we ALL eat together and celebrate.  that's more like it.

no need to hide stuff and exclude me to do the preparation and all. and i do feel like im lying every time i have to react . i m happy but like i said i already know .. 

so yeah, i prefer " happy birthday!! lets go out and celebrate :) !"

Dating Vs Courting ...

i dont want dating .. i court

Most people with a lasting relationship and loving marriage will tell you they are best friends, or that their relationship started off as a friendship and grew into love. I believe that is where courtship comes into play – when two friends fall in love, want to get married, and begin a courtship. Both the man and woman are aware that their relationship is leading to marriage, and in due time, they will tie the knot. Granted, they are more than likely to say they are “dating”, as that word is most commonly used in today’s society, but essentially, they are courting.

With dating, the ambiguity of the relationship and its unclear future, can be both disturbing and heartbreaking. Intentions need to be made exceptionally clear right from the onset, so that both the man and woman can act accordingly. If you’re dating to get to know someone, good luck, because let’s face it, most people are on their best behavior on a ‘just a date’.

 If you build a friendship first, then you already know the person, and in courting them, you see if they would be a suitable spouse for you. -copy paste

kids date . wiser ,mature ppl court .. i guess  :)

these two are my inspiration .. they courted :) 8 years they waited to be married .dr sheikh muszaphar shukor and Dr Halina Yunos . now they have 2 kids! and many more to come :)

 her sister, dr Hamizah Yunos also courted for 10 years  with a doctor.who was also her schoomate. now they have a baby girl !! like them ..

#random . something by professional people caught my attention..

from a medical page by a doctor ..not that i firmly believe it. just for fun . but i like the way my preference  of these pics describes my personality..

i prefered no 5 which says :

5. You are self-assured and in charge. You are very independent. Your guiding principle in life is 'I'll do it my way.'. You are very self-reliant and know how to stay strong for yourself and the people you love. You know exactly what you want and are not afraid of pursuing your dreams. The only thing you demand from people is honesty. You are strong enough to accept the truth.

impressively related to me. 

i do like to know truth. to me, if people dont like me, or my personality, it's better for them to TELL ME. coz if i do not know, everytime they annoy me, id be hurt and wondering y they hurt me .. then being sad like damsel in distress. if i know, life would be easier!! i already know certain people dont like me..if they do anything bad that hurts my feeling, i dont have to wonder  why..I ALREADY KNOW WHY. see easy ??

and  people do tell me that they feel force ( i dono if this is the correct word) to have to do what i want to do .for example if i want to eat at McD and others want to eat at Sushi, i wont follow them to Sushi. im ok if i have to eat at McD alone . i just dont believe in wasting money to things i dont want. IM NOT RICH yo! and some ppl feel forced because they want to do everything TOGETHER.. then they claim that they have to follow me to eat where i want to tho they refuse it ... i dont force. i just like to have it my way... and there's nothing wrong with eating separately for me, as long as everyone happy. if they wana eat together, then they have to choose only 1 place to eat, thats their prob for not being so FLEXIBLE isnt it? not mine.

yeah..im self reliant . i got it from my dad. once i know how to do it, i like to do it myself . lots of girls like to do things together right? i mean if shes going to class, she needs to wait for friend, to eat she  needs to be little hungry because she waits for her friend. i mean come on.. all those u can do it urself right? we were in the womb alone, in grave alone, why not be little independent? it doesnt hurt. it makes u stronger.

i do feel stronger year to year, waiting for this one guy i love since i was 18 years old. i dont feel like i want anyone else.. he makes me happy in every way he is. i dont care if we are far apart . He is always in my prayer, and  i always pray that he eventually be mine . in shaa Allah

and for every semester , i put intention to get into deans list for Umi and Abah. i got them for 4 times in a row. i got lazy, stressed out, i cried coz of those , but yeah those make me stronger to keep my parents happy. i dont have money, i dont work yet. i just want to pay my parents' hard work to keep me in school by giving them good grades so that they are happy. that's all i can do, and i will be strong for it .sometimes it's really hard, but needed to be done.

people say, others have to be "mirror" for u in order for you to know 'you' . i agree. if ppl ask me to describe myself ..i'd be ummmmm.... ummm... lol 

we discover ourselves as we grow mature everyday ..i dont wana miss any of  it ! after all,we got to LIVE not just SURVIVE right? 

october 19th 2013

i watched INSIDIOUS 2 today. 

i liked it a lot!! im not into horror until i saw this one. and the others by James Wan. i give it  4 stars.. 

so i went with Shahira. my neighbour at home ,also my former schoolmate. she's a law student. she left her blanket , she wanted a new one. we shopped a bit after watching . she brought her friend along, who was wearing literally her pjs because it wasnt planned . 

we both wanted to go out, but she decided to tag along on last min. yep, she went to watch movie at the mall wearing pjs and tudung hahahhaha..1 whole day ok ..we went home at 7pm something ..i brought garlic butter spread WHICH MAKES ME SO HAPPY. i just love the taste of garlic!!! dono why hahah..im into vampires too ,like the Cullens :)  *off topic*

and German dark chocolate with whole hazelnuts Ritter SPORTS? yeah tastes awesome!!!

it was raining. i hope i forgot wat i watched. i hate it being not scared during the movie but scared when i was abt to go to sleep. shits.

as usual, i watched the subs mostly hahahahhaha.. chicken

i havent done any study yet.

today is a long day for me.

i thought i lost my phone.

when i realised it's not with me, i looked everywhere in the  room , i checked my bag. not there! 

so i rushed into a taxi to Shahira hostel. pakcik taxi pitied me. he didnt charge me anything. he said "loook for ur phone, i pity u " *in malay la* ..

I didnt remember her room. i went by hunch tryin to recall what she told me. close enough. i knocked on room 1.6 shes actually at 1.5 ..

she wasnt there. she went to female sport court  sth to play ball she bought along with the blanket.. it was so hard!!! 

then i took a taxi to top up my secondary phone to call people who might know shahira's no..at melawati utama? i dono that place's name.. my money runs like water on the fare ..ayyo ..dah la pokai.. 

then i made announcement on FB, abt me losing my phone and im not reachable on my primary number.trying so hard to reach shahira. i asked ppl desperately for her no bcoz she's not online!!! ppl check ur FB plz!! hahahah

i was stressed out! i got numbers of friends but they dont pick up coz thats my new number i was calling them with . so annoying. u think i want to mengorat u eh? perasan hahahhaha

anyways, i reached the one who tagged  along with us tadi. she gave me shahira's no but she wasnt picking up calls!!! *so angry ok*  so she helped me go to shahira's room to see if shes asleep or not there etc. 

i angrily texted shahira to pickup her phone. finally i got to speak to her, and Izzati *tagged along-friend*  just arrived at her door hahahha

she checked her car, i gave a call to my primary phone coz it was on silent MODE.

of course , when you lose your phone, IT'S IDEALLY ON SILENT!!!!!!! stress aku!

she told me it was on her backseat .. simple as that . alhamdulillah phone's found .

sayang phone.. i even thought of going back to the mall where we watched movie. but my instinct told me it's not that bad. so i didnt  go ..i couldnt afford to go anyway..so tired n waste  of money. after reloading my prepaid on 2ndary phone, i went back to IIUM. safer like that. i was alone!!!

so yeah,i couldnt just sit there tho my insticnt didnt feel anything bad .. i guess that's just how women work right. they worry. hahahhaha i am one. so it's OK :p ..it's our nature to worry

day 3 raya aidiladha 1434 H

i went back to campus early. have quiz and exam on 23, 24, 31 oct .. i havent read what im supposed to read hahhah

memang x la aku nak baca masa cuti raya kan!

i went back by bus. so f-ing tiring!! 

1 handbag, 1 laptop backpack, 1 small balik kampong bag yg packed hahhaha...typical woman :p

i thought id go back to campus on Sunday. But i think better today.. since i havent done laundry, havent read bla bla.. 

so , actually i just want to doodle that today i could independently travel by bus from my hometown to here !! hahhahahaha tu jer.. xde apa pon..

im skeptical abt going back alone. but when i think abt it, till when? i need to learn to be more independent kan? dah besa gedabak mana bole xreti lagi hahahha malu....

so yeah alhamdulillah.. i made it. stopped to eat Chicken Rice at The Chicken Rice Shop sekejap isi perut . then only i continued.

man those bags hurt my shoulders!!! felt like wearing a heavy vs wings like Ale Ambrosio in 2006 hahahaha! it's still hurt as im writing.

im glad i arrived safely here .and it is sad to leave before Sunday. oh btw, there's no cafe nearby me opened. have to go out to eat hahahha... staffs r there but they just dont cook!

i think everybody has to be here in order for them to open cafe. so not thoughtful rightt

My bro is taking SPM on 6th November. xsempat nak ajar English comprehensively to him. I only did yesterday. He got what i taught him.. and i told him to Google if he doesn't know anything. ya know, since he's being online 24/7 ..why not use it for studying haha.. and i feel like i spent little time with my parents but they r OK. i guess when u come home then u leave home, homesick is wajib right? 

i miss my family now. :'( they r always in my prayer.

aku x reti naik bas HAHAHAHAH

eid adha is around the corner . everyone balik kampong.. or going to, in a few days..

aku punya la panic this raya , selalunyer xkesah pon balik ke x.. kalau xbalik kafe iium ni bukan nak bukak sgt pon .xbalik kang kebulur plak ..ada je certain cafes kat mahallah ( hostel) where the international students reside tu bukak tp malas aku ..

adik ngn abah sebok tanya bila aku nak balik sume.. aku pon pegila cari tiket hari Selasa. Balik 9pm khamis .. astu tadi aku pegi (rainy 10/10 night), awal gak la ke Greenwood , tp aku ni mmg xreti naik bas pon, kalau balik from Pudu , Fani yg  direct mana nk pegi aku ikot jer,

so  yg haritu aku panic, beli tiket dulu ..so Fani xbalik ngn aku hahhahaha

tula panic sangat!! org balik la tugeder geder.

ceritanya ni, aku terlepas bas hahahhahahha. 

dulu ktorg telepas bas once . tp beli tiket baru. haha ..pkol 6 intially, then kol 11 sth ... xpela . 2 org kali ni, aku sorg , mintak tolong PiPOT hanta pegi Greenwood... tapi aku tesalah tggu kat bus stop budak2 Kelantan bhahahhahah...tiket aku bas transnasional . tmpat tggu dia kat depan ... aku tggu kat belakang ..aku loser skit xtau mcm mana nak tggu bas kat mana2  =p aku xsalu naik bas pon. bapak je amik ..

so bila sorg jadila mcm ni hahhaha..aku ikot pipot ,wani,syiqin pegi makan mamak, tutti frutti ,sebelum balik for curfew uia.. xkesah la..balik uia lagi selamat .bole balik bilik aku tdo .

tadi plan nak cari tiket pegi pudu tp hesitate sbb jauh .takot smpai2 counter tiket tutup. pastu nak balik iium semula dh malam, lrt tutup..  takut la! nasib baik balik iium semula.

dulu stranded kat batu caves sbb balik berjalan lepas kol 12. xde taxi xde bas..tu aku ngn Fani, kalau mcm ni sorg2 baik xyah nak cari bala!

so here i am, in my room, thinking nak balik ke x selepas kecewa sikit xdpt naik bas independently balik umah .. aku asa nak balik esok lusa..tgk la caner.. merajok hahahhaha

experience as i grow older .. selamat hari raya aidil adha to all muslims  :) have a safe journey to your hometown!!